The End Part 2

I just read part 1 of this again and I was a little horrified that I put so much information out there. But the truth is when I look back at the experience that I mentioned, I believe I was targeted by a scammer, period. Sometimes how we are perceiving a situation is not what it really is and after we have time to step back and evaluate it, we see things more clearly. So again, I think I was targeted by a romance scammer and thank GOD he is gone.

So why am I saying “the end” this time? Because I was on Facebook and this sermon popped up entitled “How Long Are You Going to Wait on That Man?” It made me stop in my tracks because waiting for Boaz is a thing that single women in the church do. Some are waiting on a particular man and others are just waiting on the man that God has for them. Well the sermon got my attention not because of a particular man, but just because of the concept of waiting.

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You see, waiting can become problematic after a long time and after you reach a certain age. I feel there is something wrong if you are waiting for a mate forever. As I listened to the sermon, I knew what God was saying. He simply means no more waiting, so whoever comes along give them a chance.

Well shortly after that someone at my job showed interest and then someone from the past sent a message to me to reconnect. Now trust me I am not in the waiting mode anymore, but I also know that I am not going to deal with grown passive men, which seems to be what I attract. Or maybe some men just find me intimidating. Whatever the case, I am not waiting anymore. I will give a man a chance if he shows interest and I am interested as well.

Finally, I had a deadline in my heart and mind for when I was expecting Boaz to manifest in my life (not online} and then yesterday I got the devastating new that I tested positive for COVID-19. I am doing pretty well. My symptoms are not too bad, but I am dealing with the rage I feel about the person who gave it to me.

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One of my co-workers who works from home, comes into my very small office and takes off her mask and a few days later tests positive. I am mad at her, but I am also mad at myself for letting my guard down.

Pray for me. I know God is going to cause it all to work together for my good. I am home for a couple of weeks and I just have to deal with it.

Romans 8:28
King James Version
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

Things are Changing


My computer

I was sitting here using my brand new computer when a Facebook friend messaged me and asked me if I was still blogging. After she asked me, it hit me like a ton of bricks that I no longer had to go to the library. My laptop died quite a while ago and I hadn’t been able to replace it so, I stopped blogging. But now I am in my apartment typing this blog. God has made all things new.

I know this is not such a big deal to some but it is to me. So much has changed for me lately, I realized God is making all things new. You see sometimes people see you in a certain season in your life and they look at you a certain way, but then suddenly things change.

When I move to Florida (where I now live) I worked at Office Depot, then I had to leave the job to care for my father who had Alzheimer’s. Sometimes people think it’s not a good thing to sacrifice your life, but the Bible is clear about honoring you parents. I’m glad I took care of my Dad. But unfortunately, I neglected myself.

After my father died, I started working at Macy’s as a bill collector, but at the same time I was having serious health challenges because of the neglect. (Be careful caregivers). I made the mistake of leaving the job and I say that because it was a huge mistake. I think if I had just pressed, it would have all worked out. My life spiraled, but in spite of it all God took care of me.

I ended up helping an elderly lady out for room and board and stayed with her for a few years. I thought I would never get out of the situation, but FINALLY, I got my own place. I am giving you my history because God is good.

Last week, I woke up to instructions and money from my brother to put on the cable/internet. Then on Tuesday I received a desk sent from my brother.  The next day, a computer arrived.  I am now working for my brother, right from my apartment. I started this past Monday. I get up, get a shower and get dressed just like I am going to work. And leave my bedroom and go to the living room. lol It’s wonderful. I’ve always wanted to work from home.

Things are changing. This month, or next month (I said October, but I may have to change my plans since I started working), I will be taking a trip. I know it is GOD-ORDAINED. I want to make sure my arrival is not too early or too late. God is up to something big. I can feel it. No need to worry. It’s all coming together and it’s all about timing. Things tend will come together at the right time, even when we think it’s late. Again, I will keep you posted.

I hope I didn’t bore anybody. lol If you find yourself in God’s waiting room, relax and just wait. Don’t get anxious. God hasn’t forgotten you. Things will change. Things are changing.



Keep-Calm-Stay-Put (1)When God shows you His plan for your life, you have to resolve to WAIT ON GOD! These past few days have been difficult, but in the midst of it all, I am learning that you have to hear what God is saying and follow what God is telling you to do, no matter what people are telling you to do.

Yesterday, I moved  from my sister’s apartment and I am temporarily staying with a friend. When I lost my house, God spoke to me and told me Florida would be the place where I would see my prophecies come to pass. So that would mean staying in Florida. And that is what I have to do. I have two close friends who have extended their homes to me, but neither one of them live in Florida. Recently, I was considering going back to New York (my hometown) but of course, I have to obey God. Right now it’s a little uncomfortable because everyone needs their own space, but God has shown me a few others things, so right now the goal is to stay in the sunshine state.

When God shows us something we must resolve in our heart that we are going to obey. Since I’ve gotten clarity, that is what I plan to do. So now the next step is to obtain what God showed me I would obtain here. I can’t go into the details, but I believe God.

There is also another area I have come into resolve about and that is waiting for my mate. I have made up my mind, that I am going to wait on the person God says is right for me, even if he is not right for me right now. We are all diamonds in the rough in some areas of our lives. Diamonds don’t just become diamonds. There is a process which includes pressure. So I will wait on who God has said He has for me and work on myself. And as this character Ms. Ora says, “wait for him to show up at my doorstep”, because I have no intention of going anywhere until he comes!

Psalm 27:14

New International Version (NIV)

14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.

Learning to Wait

I'm still waiting

I was talking to a friend recently and we were talking about waiting and suddenly I felt sad for people who don’t understand the concept of waiting on God. I’m not talking about an excuse for doing nothing. I’m talking about the legitimate wait that God requires before His promises manifest. Yes, you do absolutely have to wait on some things…God’s promises are not instant.

I have two promises that God told me about 10 years ago and yet I am still waiting. I know most people would have given up by now, but I am learning that there is a purpose in the wait. God does NOTHING without purpose. Whether it’s to prepare you, or whether it’s that the “thing” you are waiting on is not ready. Whatever the case, if God makes you wait there is a reason.

I am very much into the concept of the “fullness of time” and the reason is it’s because it’s biblical. The Bible often speaks of the “fullness of time” or the “set time”.  Even Jesus had to be born at a particular time in history. He could not have been born a minute earlier or a year later. Jesus was born at just the right time and so it is with what God is doing in our lives. A minute earlier, or a year late would be the wrong time. This can become a dilemma when we are waiting on God because most of us want what we want, when we want it, and we want it NOW. 🙂

So how was I able to wait all of this time? Because once the promise is “conceived” and God continues to confirm, it’s a done deal. You wait until you see the manifestation.  It’s like being pregnant. You carry it inside of you until it’s time to give birth. And as the confirmations continue to come, it’s keeps you focused on the vision. And then of course, God reveals more and more along the way and your “baby” begins to grow inside of you until you are undeniably “pregnant”.  There are also corresponding actions you must take. Waiting does not mean just sitting doing nothing.

Here is an example: the Lord spoke to me about supernatural financial increase. This is ME, so don’t judge me. His ways are different for everyone. Actually, God told me He was going restore what I had lost for following Him (yes sometimes we lose following God). This was before the 10 years. But it was 10 years ago that God revealed the method in which restoration would come and in the beginning, I first had to be convinced that God would even use this method. Then after I started believing, God allowed me to glean money through this system here and there. Then more and more was shown to me until I have no doubts. And even though I have not seen the total fulfillment, I am sure. I still keep getting confirmations and insights and small manifestations and it’s truly amazing! So how can I not wait?

So how do you pass the time while you are waiting? You stay in the face of God. You stay focused without making the promise an idol (that’s another blog) and you follow His instructions. You have to continue to grow in grace also. God is not going to allow you to prosper without your soul prospering. What I mean is, God is not going to let the promise take preeminence over your spiritual growth. If that happens, watch out. You may be in for a pruning of the things that have become a hindrance to your spiritual growth. In other words, if your career is taking you away from God, you might lose the career to get you back to God!

Waiting is not easy, but there is a purpose. Recently, God allowed me to glean a couple of thousand dollars through this method He gave me and suddenly, I saw the potential and the reason for the wait. It was so supernatural that had I not waited, I would have been overwhelmed. I instantly saw that five years would not have been enough time to prepare me for this particular promise. Suddenly, it all made sense.

Don’t let your age and stage concern you where God’s promises are concerned. God does not see it the same way that we do.  He is preparing you so that you can KEEP what He gives you. Some are just now learning the lesson of waiting and it’s not easy, but there is nothing you can do about it. I mean you can take matters in you own hands, but then you will only create an “Ishmael” (flesh manifestation) and the problem with Ishmael’s is they hinder the real promise. Be encouraged! God has NOT forgotten you. He is just making you wait.

Psalm 27:14

New International Version (NIV)

14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

The Purpose of Gods Timing

In 2003, the Lord showed me two visions, and a couple of days ago, I saw a major breakthrough in one of these visions.

Yesterday as I started thinking about what God had done, immediately I understood why I had to wait 10 years for this to begin. If I told you what God was doing you probably would not believe it. It’s so amazing and supernatural, but the 10 years has prepared me for it all. Suddenly, I understood the wait.

clockSometimes we feel God makes us wait, just to withhold things from us, but that is not the case. It really is all about preparation. Maybe you are not ready to be a husband or a wife or parent. Perhaps you are not ready for that ministry, or business. How many people have you seen make a mess after they have been blessed? Well sometimes people have not been properly prepared.

It’s all about the preparation. God’s concern when He begins to bless us, is that we will not “lose our minds” and forget about Him!

There is a purpose for God’s timing. Stop lamenting over your times and seasons. God has a purpose!

Ecclesiastes 3:11

New International Version (NIV)

11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

Deuteronomy 8:2

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Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands.

Now I Understand Pt. 2

Simple_rainbow_drawingThere is nothing more difficult than waiting. Especially, when you think you want something and you can’t see why you can’t have it. But I continue to learn that it’s best to wait on God. He makes everything beautiful when you wait for his perfect timing.

Sometimes the wait is to allow the truth of a situation to emerge. Moving too soon will keep us blinded and we won’t have an clear picture of what or whom we are dealing with.

This week, I learned why God has me waiting in one particular situation. No matter how old you get or who thinks your life is being wasted, WAIT ON GOD. God knows more than we know.

God knows why you don’t need a house now. God know the delay in having a child. God know why you don’t need to be in a relationship with that person now or ever. God knows. Pushing past his delay’s or no’s is too costly, and they end up being time wasters.

People try to make me feel bad about my age, my stage of life., what they think I have not accomplished, but guess what? I would rather be right where I am with the gifts of God flowing in my life, than to have multi-millions  of dollars (oh, and I’m going to have that too). But when I do get that, I will be ready. I won’t go off and forget about God and become selfish and full of myself. I won’t become a shopaholic. When God allows my wealth to come, I’ll be ready for it.

Listen, you may have wanted to connect with someone in a relationship, but God has prevented it. You’d better thank God! He knows what is best! Thank him. That is what I now understand better than ever! GOD KNOWS.

Pushing past the stop signs can destroy you. I don’t care. I’m going to wait on God!

Psalm 27:14

New International Version (NIV)

14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.