Life and Death


I was looking back trying to see when I last posted because I was thinking about how you never know what life is going to bring from one week to the next. Well shortly after I posted my last blog post, my oldest brother when home to be with the Lord.

He had a stroke in 2010, two weeks after he got remarried and he never really recovered. He was stubborn and did not do his therapy and basically, took some wrong turns and sadly departed this life, in my opinion, not fulfilling his purpose. I’m not here to be negative, but as a seer, I often see, but it doesn’t always happen, because I realize the person has to be willing and obedient.

My brother, remarried for the third time, in my opinion, out of the will or timing of God. Yes, I can say that because the marriage directly contributed to his stroke (that’s all I will share). He only had two weeks of marriage as a normal man out of nine years of marriage and that was it. I won’t go into a lot of details, but in the end, he did not have the strength to fight anymore. Shortly before he died, I had a dream that he was a little boy. I was trying to get help, but there was no one around and I couldn’t help him, because he no longer wanted to listen.

About three weeks before he died, the Lord woke me up and instructed me to turn on the TV and there was this minister sharing about how we can’t fall apart when someone who knows God goes home to be with the Lord. My stomach immediately churned as my spirit was picking up what God was trying to tell me, but my mind did not want to accept it.

The week my brother died, I felt it in the air. Still trying to believe for his healing, but the problem was, my brother no longer wanted to live. The day my brother died, I felt sick all day and when his daughter called me that night, I already knew he was gone. You may think my “premonitions” are odd, but after my mother died, I asked the Lord to always prepare me whenever someone close to me was going to die and God has done that. He prepared me when my father died as well.

Amazingly, my grief has been easy. My brother was suffering and he is in heaven, so there is no reason to grieve. I told someone if God offered him billions to come back, he wouldn’t, so we have to keep living and make certain we fulfill our purpose.

Yes, I get sad thinking about my brother. He was a GREAT preacher. I wanted to hear him preach again. I wanted to see him walk again. I don’t understand it all, but God does and that is good enough for me.

I have about three more posts I want to write, but I had to share this. Life can bring the unexpected, but God will give us the grace to go through it. Be encouraged if you lost a loved one. Lean on God and he will help you through it.

Coming next: My list for a mate, Kanye West and a Christian celebrity that everyone likes, but no one loves, not necessarily in that order.


Prayer and Fasting

I’m coming off a 10-day partial fast based on Daniel 1 which was when Daniel ate only vegetables. This is been the best experience as well as eye-opening.

Every believer should incorporate fasting into their spiritual life. It’s a game changer. There are times when we go through difficult circumstances and we need answers and there is nothing like powering up your prayers with fasting.

I am going to be honest and tell you that I have been a little lazy in this area. Have I fasted? Yes, I have fasted most of my spiritual walk, but there has been a mandate on me lately and I have missed the mark. For example this 10-day fast has been something I have been “trying” to complete since the beginning of the year. Seemed like I couldn’t get past four days. But praise God, I finally got the victory.

And even though I did complete the fast, I also want to be honest and say I messed up right toward the end of the fast. Not so much with food. But with something else. But God is merciful and he highlighted to me that this is an area that I must get victory over. And then He told me to keep going.

There was also something that God wanted to show me and not only did He give me spiritual insight, but he gave me a peace like I’ve not had before. God is indeed in control, no matter what it looks like.

Experiencing a crisis? Need to get answers, or draw closer to God, or want to hear His voice better? Fasting is the key! For you who have experienced fasting, who have gotten lazy, get back to it. For you who are starting for the first time, get some good literature on it and begin. Your life will never be the same!

Daniel 1

Do the Work!

under constructionThe other day I had the TV on OWN (the Oprah Winfrey Network) and Iyanla Vanzant’s program “Fix My Life” was on and I noticed the intro of the show where she talks about attaining it all, then losing it all, then recovering it all again. She make a statement about “doing the work” necessary to recover it all again.

What made me think about “doing the work” was a post by author Susan Gregory talking about the Daniel Fast (see next post) and how while on the Daniel Fast you have to deal with the issues God brings up while fasting and I thought for Christians that is how we “do the work”.

Most of us have a myriad of issues and we just won’t do the work. We deal with externals when God is really trying to get us to look within and “do the work” and get it together once and for all.

I have much work to do internally and so do a lot of you. And for many of us, that is the reason it’s taking us so long to receive some of what God has for us.

And if you name the name of Jesus, doing the work means spending time with God, fasting, praying and allowing Him to do that deep cleansing within.

I had to come to some conclusions recently. God is showing me that some things are being withheld in my life and in order for me to receive them, I have to change.

This year, I am spending less time online because time is late and there is no more time to waste. Time to do the work!

Love Series: It’s Not About Emotions, It’s About Purpose!

stopnowThis morning God spoke to me in a dream and showed me very clearly that my prayer and fasting is not in vain. We have to contend for the will of God. Don’t think that the enemy won’t try to hinder us from moving into the purpose of GOD. Not our purpose, but God’s.

When I remove my emotions and what I feel about a certain situation in my life, I know that I don’t have to worry. God’s perfect will IS going to be done.

Never mind our emotions. Never mind feeling rejected. At the end of the day, it’s about God’s purpose. Yes, even marriage is about purpose.

If I look at the circumstances I would say “heck no”. But I want PURPOSE more than I want to feel good. Oh trust and believe, good feelings will come LATER. But God is not concerned about giving us the emotional high of “so-called love”. which comes and goes. Love is a decision and not so much a feeling.  And how do we know that? We know that because we’ve all met couples who were madly in love who ended up almost killing each other later. It’s not about that. God is a matchmaker.

I have to fight for purpose! And God’s purpose is going to be done. If he has revealed it to two people, he will do it, even if one is rebelling now. I shall not be moved! And it really helps hat this challenge was shown to me BEFORE HAND. Glory!

As long as I keep my emotions out of the way and focus on purpose, I will be just fine!

Isaiah 46:10-11

New International Version (NIV)

10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.’
11 From the east I summon a bird of prey;
from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose.
What I have said, that I will bring about;
what I have planned, that I will do.

God’s Got It!

truthorlieBefore the holiday, I took a few days to fast and pray and boy did I receive focus and clarity! When we seek him, He will make things clear to us.

I was concerned about a friend and had prayed for them and this past week they shared a dream and I knew that God was speaking, making the situation clear. Whether or not they will heed is on them. But God was clearly showing them that their thoughts are not His thoughts.

Sometimes we may be concerned about our friends and family, but we have to remember that God has it. He is able to speak to them and tell them exactly what they need to know. Whether they receive it, is on them. Once God reveals a thing, the responsibility rest squarely on our shoulders.

Our biggest prayer should be against the spirit of deception. It’s when we are deceived about the outcome of a situation, or are being deceived by someone, is when we have the most problems.

Pray for the spirit of truth to come. Time is out for believing or perpetuating a lie. But remember, God’s got it!

Psalm 51:6

King James Version (KJV)

6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.


[dih-seev]  Show IPA verb, de·ceived, de·ceiv·ing.

verb (used with object)


to mislead by a false appearance or statement; delude: They deceived the enemy by disguising thedestroyer as a freighter.

to be unfaithful to (one’s spouse or lover).

Archaic. to while away (time).
verb (used without object)


to mislead or falsely persuade others; practice deceit: an engaging manner that easily deceives.

Fasting and Focus

plugintoI was reading some of my old blog posts and I have to say I rather enjoyed them. lol I also realize that this blog is ministry and I sincerely hope it’s helping someone. I don’t get a lot of comments like I used to, but that is okay. Even if  one person is helped, it’s worth it.

I wanted to share about the importance of the discipline of fasting in our walk with God. I can’t emphasize enough how very important this discipline is for your spiritual growth. Fasting will help you to focus and hear God more clearly. It will help you overcome and escape the temptation of sin. If you don’t live a fasted life, I recommend you start now. This is a key for someone who has cried out to God for an answer as to what they should do.

I have fasted nearly all of my Christian life and it’s really a key to why I am walking this prophetic walk today. But it’s still a battle. Like most of us, I like food and God is requiring more of me in this area and I still have my battles, but I refuse to give up, and you don’t give up either. Don’t let the enemy discourage and tell you that you did it before and nothing happened. Fasting to me MUST be a lifestyle. Most of the successful ministers today lead a fasted life and we should too.

Just on a personal note for those with health issues; in 2011, I went to the emergency room and left being told I was a type 2 diabetic. They kept me for a day and I left with prescriptions for insulin and pills. It was shocking to me because this illness does not run in my family, but I know I did it to myself.

Within two weeks, I lost 15 pds by removing the sugar from my diet. After three months I had a dream of an insulin bottle turned upside down and it was empty and I took myself off the insulin. Because of the diet changes my sugar had started to go dangerously low, so I knew God was showing me what to do.

I know diabetics are not supposed to fast, but I am now only on one pill (Metformin) and I am able to do the Daniel fast quite comfortably. This fast includes vegetables and water. Some people do fruit, but for obvious reasons, I don’t do fruit.

I shared that to say, God will help you to fast, even with a health issue. Now, I am not talking about insulin dependant diabetics. You can’t fast while on insulin. You may have to give up a favorite food or television. And of course use wisdom. This is MY testimony. Just wanted to share how God helped me to continue to fast even with a health issue.

I’ll soon be off this medicine. Trust me, I am soon going to share the day when God set me free from diabetes. I never accepted this illness and I never will. Meanwhile, I am going to keep fasting and praying.

Matthew 6:16-18

New International Version (NIV)


16 “When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 17 But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, 18 so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.