It’s My Time/And Yours Too!

Have any promises of God that you are waiting on? Tired of waiting? Hardly believing anymore? Well I want to encourage and tell you that it’s your time.

I’m starting to a see a glimpse of light at the end of a very long tunnel. Some of you have been blessed to have seen many breakthroughs. I am happy for you! But there are those of us who have waited and waited and waited some more and I tell you it’s not fun.

Lately, I am seeing a little bit of a breakthrough in the area of work. For me the struggle has been real and as I look back I realize that some people are 9-5 people and others are not and you have to find your niche. I have never been a 9-5 office type person. I realized recently that I wanted to be like my mom. I wanted to get married, have 6 kids (yes 6) and be a stay at home mom. But it never happened and I didn’t really have a back up plan. But don’t feel sorry for me. The one thing I am proud of is that I answered the call of God on my life and put other things secondary. But now I am seeing a change.

So my biggest breakthrough has been being able to work from home. Some people need the office politics and banter and so on and so forth, but I have always wanted to work from home and last year, my brother started paying me to do research for his business right from my home!! I am so happy. And right now I am training for another position at another company doing social media research, right from home. Honestly, I am living my dream right now. No travel, no care fare, no office drama. Not for everyone, but it’s for me. And there is more to come!!

I realize that things are really beginning to change and it’s all about coming into your Kairos moment. That is that opportune time when God is manifesting what you want. It’s your set time. Your appointed time.

It’s been a long time coming and I’ve often wondered if I missed God and maybe I have missed some opportunities, but I just know “It’s my time!” And it’s yours too! Don’t give up!!

Stay tuned! There is more to come!

Psalm 102:13 New International Version (NIV)

¹³ You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
for it is time to show favor to her;
the appointed time has come.

Selfish or Self-less?

In the last couple of days, two people have referred to me as being selfish. One person said it indirectly and the other said it directly. Of course when you hear things like that and you feel you aren’t selfish, you immediately get on the defensive. But I decided to not to do that when I heard it today.

The person that said it to me indirectly is the lady that I have been caring for, for 2 1/2 years now. I have served her and others have said “waited on her hand and foot”. I have cooked everyday, served her meals, cleaned the kitchen daily, taken her to her many doctors appointments, did the food shopping, picked up her meds and the list goes on. Instead of being paid, I have paid the utilities and given her money as well. Sound selfish?

I didn’t pay it much mind because I have finally decided to move away. I have been self-less for the past 10 years. When I moved to Florida from New York City, I became the caregiver for my Dad. After he died, I ended up being in the same situation, but I am finally letting go and moving on. This is why she is calling me selfish. I’ve decided to “get my life”. It’s laughable.

Today, I was referred to as being selfish because in the past, I was fighting for something that I thought God said was for me. At this point, I have let that go, but I am still very concerned for the person who I was fighting for. I’m glad this was communicated to me because you never know how someone is thinking until they tell you.

Here is the deal. I want the person free and happy period. I am very clear that it would be nothing more than that. And one thing I do know. God has spoken about my role to help, so I believe that person knows that I am a friend and not a foe. So I can be lied on and maligned, it doesn’t matter. When the dust settles, I am a friend who knows that I can help and the time is now.

I did think about what was said, and I can see why a person would say “well you only want to help me because you are thinking how it will benefit you”. That was not my mindset ever, from my perspective. But I can help and move on. I know I can. Too much has happened for this to be a blessing, at least in my mind. If a man makes it clear he has no intention of making you a part of his life, there is nothing left to do but accept it. But I think we can see other people and still be a friends.

Selfish? I think not. Try self-less? My problem is I need to be more selfish.

The End of a Season

There are seasons of life that we all go through and when you live a surrendered life, God can do whatever He wants with you. Not many understand this, but I am here for those who walk this “prophetic walk”.

In 2005, I  moved from the city of my birth (NY) and landed in west Florida, living with my Dad. He was up in age and his health was beginning to decline. Initially, I came because I needed to, but God had a plan. I ended up staying and taking care of him until he died in 2011.

I went through a lot, especially in the area of my health. One of the worse things a caregiver can do is neglect themselves and sadly, that is what I did. I got a very good job, but left because of health issues. This took my life in a direction that I’m not so sure I was supposed to go. But God has a way of working things out for our good.

I ended up moving in with an elderly lady who really needed help and that was our arrangement. Again, I found myself as a caregiver. Now don’t think I went into this willingly. It’s one thing to take care of your parent. It’s another thing to take care of someone who is not a relative. But this lady had lost her 35-year-old daughter years ago and had no one to take care of her. So God placed me in that role and gave me enough confirmation to know, I was in the will of God.

Now, because I have heard a lot of gossip that this lady is saying behind my back, I know it’s time for me to make a move. God in his grace has secured a place for me in another city. Still in Florida, but about 30 minutes from where I now live. It’s amazing how you can make a sacrifice and it not really be appreciated. But I am not going to dwell on that. I know what I did was in obedience to God. But guess what? IT’S MY TIME!!

If my life doesn’t seem that interesting or glamorous, just keep watching. I am about to enter a new season and I believe that in this next season, all that has been laying dormant is about to come forth. I decree and declare that 2016 is indeed my year!! And if you can identify with anything I have said, let me tell you, open your mouth and declare that it’s your time too!

Psalm 126

On a Personal Note..lol

I did want to say this…in the past I have used this blog as a place to vent about my life. It did resonate with some people, but if I could turn back the hands of time, I would never have shared anything about vision.

Vision is such a personal thing and it’s so  fragile. Whether it’s a vision about a business, having a house, a family etc, my recommendation is keep it to yourself. If you put it out there it can change the entire trajectory of where God wants it to go. And ladies, whatever you do, DO NOT share anything of a personal nature about a specific mate on a blog, or to a person. Trust me you will live to regret it.

I look back now and view it all as a waste of time. It may not have been, but it certainly feels like it. I think my sharing did more damage than Good. When God spoke to Mary, the mother of Jesus, she quietly pondered those things in her heart. She didn’t broadcast them and even if you don’t mean it that way, it will come across that way.

As for me and Boaz (whoever that is) I am praying for God’s perfect will to be done in my life. If that includes a husband, nice. But if it doesn’t include one, maybe even better. I don’t think I have the gift to be single, but time is late and I may be able to coast on into eternity without a mate (my best friend HATES to hear me say that) lol.

One thing I do know is that your mate will want to be with you and if he doesn’t, he is not the one. You won’t have to convince him of who he is and if God’s speaks to him and he says no, God will send you someone better. That’s is all I have to say about this subject. I’m going to try to get to “Caitlynn Jenner” soon.

Luke 2:19New King James Version (NKJV)

¹⁹ But Mary kept all these things and pondered them in her heart.

The Future is Not Fixed!

Years ago I was a part of a ministry where the Pastor used to always say “Destiny is not left of to chance, it’s a matter of choice. The longer I live, the more I understand the truth of this statement. Yes, I believe God’s final worldwide plan will be done, but in our own personal lives, I know that it’s the decisions that we make that are going to decide where we will end up. I cringe when I hear Christians say “if it’s meant to be, it will happen”. Sorry but if that is your belief system, we will have to agree to disagree. I have watched too many things fall to the ground and die, which I know was in the plan and purpose of God. When people were telling me, it didn’t happen because it was not meant to be, God was showing me that I missed it. I have watched too many Christians backslide because what they were promised never happened and what they didn’t realize is, they had the wrong mentality. They sat on the sidelines thinking God was going to do it all, when there was something they needed to do. That is why I have learned to be proactive when God gives me instructions. That is why I am back on this blog. God showed me it plays a part in my destiny. Let me tell you what happened to get my attention and bring me back:

Several hours ago, I went to see The Terminator Genisys. As I headed to the theater the Lord told me there would be a  message in the movie and I almost missed it. Sorry for you super deep Christians, but God speaks to me through movies often. I almost missed the message and saw Ant Man, lol. I was standing at the box office and changed my mind again and am I glad I did. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie with all of it’s twists and turns. Without spoiling it, the movie is very much about the twist and turns towards destiny and when the movie was over, the last words spoken were “the future is not fixed!” Well that got my attention. God knows how to do that. I knew instantly that the Lord was letting me know that my destiny was at stake and something was happening that would try to challenge it. I also instinctively knew that I needed to get back to writing, at least today. God knows that I have lived through missing enough, that I refuse to not get what He intends for me to have.

Perhaps this one blog post can stop the plan of the enemy against me. Perhaps it will help someone else to not make a wrong decision, or move in the wrong direction toward the wrong thing or person. God knows what we need. He is looking for obedience to what he has already revealed.

Abraham and Sarah became impatient about God’s plan and Sarah gave her handmaid Hagar to Abraham, to have a child with, since she was past the childbearing years. This may seem innocent and since God is the giver of life, we may think this was God’s plan. I know it’s hard to look in the face of a beautiful child and say “you don’t belong here”. Yes, Ishmael was born outside of the promise of God. Isaac was the promised child. And the result is the descendants of Ishmael and Isaac are still fighting to this day! This is due to disobedience

Yes, we can create circumstances and relationships and even children, who were not in God’s perfect plan! Why? Because God has given us the free will to do so. But beware! When you do that. you will have to live with the consequences of your actions and that can end up haunting you for the rest of your life! So don’t disobey and create your own hell! Fix your future by cooperating with God!

 

When Vision Dies

This is probably the hardest post I have had to write. It’s hard because I don’t yet understand all that I have gone through.

I’ve share so much about vision on this blog and everything God shared with me has happened. That is what makes it so difficult to understand. I could see if nothing that God showed me had happened, but it’s quite the opposite. EVERYTHING the Lord has showed me, has happened, even down to the current circumstance.

I believed God had showed me a specific man as a mate. The Lord opened a door of communication, the Lord told me he would connect me with someone who would give me insight on that mans life, God showed me, he would get tangled up with a friend of mine and that has happened. Yet I feel strongly that this is the end. So what do I do with all God showed me?

The vision started with God saying to me, he will come VERY CLOSE to marrying someone, but in the end, he and I would end up together. But right now that is not in the realm of possibility. He has made it quite clear that he has found the one he loves the one perfectly suited for him.

In the past, I have felt to ignore all that I saw and heard and still believe, but I no longer feel that way anymore. I believe I should embrace and accept all that they (the couple) are saying and wish them the best.

Here is my dilemina. What do I do with all that was shown to me in dreams and visions and manifestations? I can’t imaging being able to embrace anything that God says to me from now on.

I have been accused of working witchcraft and voodoo. I guess that is the only way for them to explain this. But I heard everything I shared ahead of time, But it’s not going to happen, so I must find a way to make peace with this situation and move on.

I don’t have a problem admitting if I am wrong. The problem is that from what I heard, I was not wrong.

So what was all of that? Was it deception? Well how could it be. I did not ask for this, nor set my sights on this. Perhaps something happened and something changed and God decided this is no longer good for me.  Well, I just have to live with it.

At this point even though the circumstances still seems to fit, I feel it would not be good to hold on. God knows and knew something about this that I don’t. My only question is why did God reveal it in the first place?

I wish I could tie this up in a neat bow and say that it was  never God. Maybe it wasn’t. Again, I am left with what I saw and heard and what manifested. But more has manifested for someone else, so I must let go forever. It’s heart wrenching!

P.S. And to the gentlemen who was the object of this vision, I sincerely apologize for anything I have done. Please know I only shared what I saw. I wish you only the best and am and will continue to be happy for you! God bless!