Contending for the Perfect Will of God

Jesus in Gethsemane

Jesus in Gethsemane

If  you had told me I would be in this place a year, ago, maybe I would have believed it, but I would not have believed it would be this bad.

I honestly don’t see my role in God’s plan. I really don’t. I wonder why the test. What’s the purpose? What’s the reason? Where do I fit in? People are mad at me and I didn’t even choose this.

Man has made a choice, so why after the choice has been made, must I hold on?

And God said: Because you are surrendered to MY will!


Luke 22:42

King James Version (KJV)

42 Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.

Love Series: He Not That Man Yet!

Sleep eludes me. I’m tormented in the sense of being “pregnant” by the Holy Ghost, but human and tired of rejection and pain. I mean, in my flesh I could let this go. But the spirit of God says NOT SO! Glory! So I am racking my brain asking God why?  God says: It’s the price! Okay, I get that.  But what if two people really want to be together? I’m okay with it Lord. I can accept it. I’m am REALLY OKAY WITH IT LORD!! LOL God said: I ordained the relationship, just not a marriage! WOW! I heard that before. God said: all of this is shaping him into the man for YOU! Can you receive it? Can you accept it? But God, he don’t like me! God: Oh he will, oh HE WILL! Alright Lord! OH THE COST! count the cost

Can You Handle the Truth?

handle the truthMy best friend and I both grew up under my brother, who was our Pastor and we find ourselves praising my brother more and more about the firm foundation that we were taught. My oldest brother, now sidelined by a stroke, taught us the gospel of Jesus Christ based on God’s Holy Word the Bible. We did not get this positive-thinking milk toast gospel that people are being fed today.

Part of receiving God’s word is understanding that all that is shared by God is NOT ALWAYS POSITIVE. I feel sorry for these touch, feely Christians who have to be spoon fed the Bible with honey, in order to make it palatable. As this world hurries to a close those Christians are in for the shock of their lives!

But here is the real truth. Few people are students of the scripture anymore. We pick and choose what we want to read. And if we don’t like what it says, we don’t read it anymore. We stick to the scriptures that make us feel good about our sin and our disobedience. And we surround ourselves with people just like that as well. And then we attack those who share what they see in the spirit and label them rumor-mongers. But I say “can you handle the truth?”

Here is another truth. Everything in life is not as it appears and the sooner we accept that the better off we will be. There is a danger to seeing life only through rose-colored glasses and not be able to handle even the most constructive criticism. Here are a few examples.

I was following a Christian actress on twitter. Nobody really noteworthy according to the world, but she professes Christianity. And when I  follow a Christian, I don’t expect their posts to contain vulgar language. Well she tweeted a post with the f-word and a big bottle of alcohol and it said “grown”. I think it was her birthday, so she was “celebrating”. Well I simply tweeted her back and asked “Christian?”. Well she blocked me from her account. (good riddance). This is what I mean by touchy, feely Christianity. Posed with a simple question, she got offended, but it was alright for her to tweet out a vular post. Deliver me from these wimpy saints!

Here is another example of a different kind: I’ve shared often that before 911, my former Pastor, who is also a Prophet, sent out a nationwide letter warning people NOT to do business on September 11, 2001. One of the church members had a business meeting at Windows on the World Restaurant and because she believed the prophet and understood his track record, she cancelled her meeting, not needing an explanation. Well we all know what happened and we all know that nobody made it out of that restaurant alive.

So what would a positive-only hearing Christian have said? They would have probably rationalized it away and thought their meeting was more important and viewed those warnings as ‘negative”. And they probably would have ended up dead.

Can you handle the truth? It’s funny. When I share something I see or sense in the spirit, people usually always want to crucify me, but then they inevitably have to come back to me and tell me I was right. Yes, we love to stone the prophets!

So what should we do? Keep sharing the truth. Keep being misunderstood and keep being graceful when those touchy-feely Christians have to come back and apologize and say at the time, they just couldn’t handle the truth. Let them continue to walk in disobedience to God, and dig themselves deeper and deeper in a hole and have to learn the hard way.

Meanwhile be encouraged truth-tellers. Continue to warn, exhort and share it as you see it. Continue to talk about hell, judgment and what is going to happen in these last days. Continue to balance out this fluff gospel, that tells people we are going to live happily ever after, with the truth. Let them tell you that over time your voice is fading in to nothingness, because in a minute they are going to tell you just the opposite. And then when they come running for you, remind them of God’s grace and ask them “can you handle the truth”?

John 8:32

New International Version (NIV)

32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

The Missing Pieces

abstract-puzzle-background-two-missing-pieces-7204523I tell you, I wouldn’t trade this prophetic walk for anything in the world! Has it been easy? No, it has not. But sometimes you must go through crazy unorthodox things, in order to receive a crazy unorthodox blessing!

So I was praying just a little while ago asking God for 2 missing pieces to this “puzzle”. God had showed me something, but there were two things missing and then the Lord reminded me. He had instructed me to go some place and although I didn’t know where I went would give me the two missing pieces, it did. I didn’t realize it until today.

I know, I am talking in riddles but I have to. What I am pretty much saying is that God solved a puzzle for me and I burst into tears (something I rarely do) when I realize that He was giving me the answer.

Keep praying and asking because God will answer!! Don’t give up!

Jeremiah 33:3

New International Version (NIV)

3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

The Appointed Time

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October 17, 2013

The Lord has given every one of us a vision for our lives. It may be a ministry, a calling, a family, a career or even a project. Many of you have had situations arise in your life, which make the God given vision seem as if it was a figment of your imagination. What you don’t realize is that this vision (assignment) is for an appointed time.

The Lord says, I am calling you back to pursue the vision that you once had and the callings that I have placed on your lives. Just as a pregnant woman does not see the baby immediately but goes through a nine month process before giving birth, the vision has a due date and it is for an appointed time. Do not be dismayed by adverse circumstances which seem to cancel your assignment. Continue to nurture and protect the vision that has been impregnated on the inside of you. Recognize the process of development. You will also give birth in due season.

There are seasons for planting and seasons for reaping. There is an appointed time for everything to come into fruition. Do not allow discouragement to overwhelm you or lead you in the wrong direction. The assignments sent from the enemy are meant to divert your attention off your purpose, but as you pursue your vision and the dream that I have placed in your heart, your perseverance will propel you into your destiny. The misfortunes that were sent to destroy you will strengthen you if you stay on course. Write the vision and reestablish it in your life once again. It will certainly come to pass in its appointed time. Trust Me to continue to guide you in the vision that I have for your life says the Lord.

Psalms 1:3 He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, Whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven

Habakkuk 2:2-4 Then the Lord answered me and said: ” Write the vision and make it plain on tablets, that he may run who reads it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; because it will surely come, It will not tarry. ” Behold the proud, his soul is not upright in him; but the just shall live by his faith.