Surviving Covid-19 Part 1

I’ve been thinking about writing this post for a while, but I just didn’t get around to it because I have been dealing with getting the Corona virus and all of it after affects. Just writing those words brings up so many emotions, so I know it will take me two posts to get it all out.

When you reach a certain age in life, you realize that things don’t always go the way that you want them to no matter how we try to avoid them. I say this because even the most careful of us can end up getting this crazy virus. Here is my story:

When the virus started to get bad back in March, my job went on lock down and we worked from home for 2 months. God has been good to me because I continued to work this entire year, never missed a paycheck or a meal and I still have a roof over my head. I know this is NOT the case for many people, but I am grateful to God for how my year has been.

I lost my sister in February and by May I received the surprise of my life when I received a letter about a life insurance policy in which I was name the second beneficiary (our father was the primary, but he is deceased). I was able to accomplish so much and I even brought a new car even though my other car was only a year old. So for me, this has been a great year financially. God has been good!

But just last month after being extremely careful about this virus, I was infected. I was not attending church for safety. I stopped going to the movies, don’t go to the hair or nail salon and I pretty much do nothing except get my food. No socializing or anything. But on December 3rd a co-worker came into my office and removed her mask. I had heard her talk about how uncomfortable they were and so she steps into my office and promptly removes it and stays for 15 mins. At a certain point I put my mask on, but I guess it was too late. I always look back to that day and wonder why I didn’t ask her to put it back on, or put mine on immediately, which is what I normally do, but of course hindsight is twenty-twenty.

On December 8th my boss call’s me on my work phone and informs me that this employee tested positive for the virus. Of course I was horrified because I had spent 15 minutes in my very small office with her. So I got tested and on December 12 I received the terrible news that I had tested positive. I kind of sensed it though, because by the time I go tested, I had developed this dry hacking cough and I kept wondering, why I was coughing

After the initial shock, I felt a little fear because I didn’t know what to expect. But after that subsided, I had to deal with a real rage. Honestly, it’s been a long time since I felt this angry. You see folks, wearing a mask is mainly about protecting other people. It’s really not about you! My friends and family will tell you, I was so angry, I really had to get a hold of myself. I told one of my co-workers that if the woman who infected me wasn’t working here, I would have sued her. And what made it bad was she did not apologize nor acknowledge that she gave it to me at all. Just moving along like nothing ever happened. Also, she found out she was positive, so soon after our encounter, so I wondered when she suspected she had it.

The most difficult part of all of this is that I know this could have been avoided. I believe if she had worn her mask and if I asked her to put her mask back on the outcome would have been different. I also should have put my mask on sooner. But of course there is nothing can be done about it now. The good part is my symptom’s were not too bad and I did not have to go to the hospital. As you know, many are dying from this. I had a childhood friend die leaving his wife and 4 children. Another friend stayed in the hospital for 6 months. And my former Pastor got it, got pneumonia, had a stroke and is now in a rehab, all as a result of Covid-19. And his wife got it and she was undergoing Chemo at the time. So I know that my circumstance could have been much worse. Other than extreme fatigue, and occasional cough, and losing my taste and smell. I did pretty good. But let me tell you this; Covid-19 is nothing that you want to get.

To be continued….

Let’s Talk About My Issues

explosed link on a chainI think I have shared enough about this other stuff. God spoke to me last night about three different things. I stayed up all night and it was worth it.

First the Lord spoke to me about the financial increase that he promised me. God told me that my harvest (yes, I worked for it) would come “out-of-wedlock”. Meaning I would not get money by way of my mate. I would come to the marriage with wealth of my own. I can’t detail it, but something supernatural happened and that is all I will say. In the past,  I have shared some things with a couple of people and have learned this promise if for ME.

Then the last thing the Lord showed me was that I was harboring unforgiveness. I had been praying about why I was eating so much and gaining back the weight that I lost and I realize that the issue is deeper than food, so when I asked God about it, he told me that there was someone I had not forgiven. But early this morning at 7 am I had on Christian TV and the minister kept saying that God was going to speak and answer a question and what did the man talk about? Forgiveness!

I realize that I have been harboring something for a very long time and it’s time for me to forgive this man because he probably doesn’t even know to this day what he has done. But that’s it. I’m letting it go once and for all.

Now it’s going to take some fasting, but I am ready for this bondage to break over my life!

Matthew 6:14-15

New International Version (NIV)

14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Do the Work!

under constructionThe other day I had the TV on OWN (the Oprah Winfrey Network) and Iyanla Vanzant’s program “Fix My Life” was on and I noticed the intro of the show where she talks about attaining it all, then losing it all, then recovering it all again. She make a statement about “doing the work” necessary to recover it all again.

What made me think about “doing the work” was a post by author Susan Gregory talking about the Daniel Fast (see next post) and how while on the Daniel Fast you have to deal with the issues God brings up while fasting and I thought for Christians that is how we “do the work”.

Most of us have a myriad of issues and we just won’t do the work. We deal with externals when God is really trying to get us to look within and “do the work” and get it together once and for all.

I have much work to do internally and so do a lot of you. And for many of us, that is the reason it’s taking us so long to receive some of what God has for us.

And if you name the name of Jesus, doing the work means spending time with God, fasting, praying and allowing Him to do that deep cleansing within.

I had to come to some conclusions recently. God is showing me that some things are being withheld in my life and in order for me to receive them, I have to change.

This year, I am spending less time online because time is late and there is no more time to waste. Time to do the work!

Time to Be Healed

jesushealingYesterday, well, early this morning, I wrote something online that I felt compelled by the Holy Spirit to say and when I saw the response, I wanted to cry. I realize now how much misunderstanding and misinterpretation stands between myself and this individual. It’s so sad!

I know that much of this would never have happened had we had a normal back and forth dialog. Recently, the person was saying that I didn’t  know how much I hurt them. Well of course I didn’t. It was never clearly communicated. This is what relationship is about. There is a back and forth between two individuals.

Communication is hard enough when you are right in each others face. Everybody hears through a filter. So I can say one thing and you can hear or understand something totally different. That is why you are to communicate and not leave it up to osmosis! God is not into telepathy folks. That is why he gave us a mouth.

When you are in the prophetic walk, it’s hard enough to be understood. But folks think that when you proclaim what you have seen and what God has shown you, that you are wishing ill will on them. That is simply not the truth. Warnings are just that. It means get your act together before your world caves in on you. That is not wishing harm on people.

Someone was trying to curse me. Well they can’t. I am God’s messenger. I am his obedient servant. I have answered the call and surrendered to him. I obey time and time again even after I get persecuted time and time again. What about you?

Listen, it’s time to stop with all the misunderstanding. I am nobodies enemy! God loves you and so do I!

Numbers 23:19-20

King James Version (KJV)

19 God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

20 Behold, I have received commandment to bless: and he hath blessed; and I cannot reverse it.

When You Lose Your Mother

motherIt’s been many years since my mother died, but I still miss her. You really can’t understand that loss, unless you live through it. I had a GREAT mom. Not just a good mom. She was saved, she served God, she was an excellent example of a virtuous woman. She had a spotless reputation and she raised me correctly. She bore six children and raised two step-children. She is the reason I am a woman of virtue.

But after losing her and with any loss, I had to recover and not get bitter. The reason I was prompted to write this blog post, is because I was watching something and I felt the Lord was saying that someone has grown so bitter over the death of their mother that it’s affecting every area of their life.They are making a lot of destructive decisions because of it. But God is standing by right now to heal. As you go to God in prayer and forgive HIM for taking your mom, you will begin to feel relief. You have even begun to wonder what is wrong with you and why you are so bound up in your spirit. You are bitter and you need to let it go.

I didn’t get angry with God after my mom died. I got angry at myself and my family. I felt we just let her go. I felt that we were not proactive enough when she got her cancer diagnosis. I felt I didn’t pray enough or fast enough. I felt the family didn’t take it seriously enough.That was my hurdle. But for someone else, you have put the blame squarely on God’s “shoulders” and you don’t go to church anymore and you are turning to new age teaching and worldly philosophies and even sinful behavior and people,  to numb the pain. The truth is you backslid when your mother died. God is calling you back to himself TODAY!

Surrender it today and watch what God does!

2 Corinthians 6:2

Amplified Bible (AMP)

2 For He says, In the time of favor (of an assured welcome) I have listened to and heeded your call, and I have helped you on the day of deliverance (the day of salvation). Behold, now is truly the time for a gracious welcome and acceptance [of you from God]; behold, now is the day of salvation!