The Pain of Grief

When my mother died many years ago, I did not think that I would survive it. It’s the finality of death that is so difficult. The fact that you won’t see your loved one here on earth ever again.

My mother died in her sixties, which is considered young for dying. I never imaged that she would be gone so soon. The pain was so hard and the grief would come in waves at time. I remember one day coming home from work and I was on the bus and the tears were just flowing. I couldn’t stop them even if I tried. Thank God I was near my stop. I remember running home when I hit the door the flood gates burst.

Up until the time that I lost my mom, I could not identify with that pain because I didn’t know what it was like. Now it’s totally different. I can so empathize with people who have lost a love one. I can cry with those who are in mourning as through it happened to me.

Grief is difficult, but you can get through it and you will.

Matthew 5:4

New King James Version (NKJV)

Blessed are those who mourn,
For they shall be comforted.

Foolishness in the Midst of Loss

I had the occasion to go through something just recently and it was a very shocking and eye-opening experience. I had someone attack me and my character two days after burying my Dad. It blew my mind. The conversation was basically about me ignoring the person (which was not true). No matter how hard I tried to explain to the individual that I was grieving (they knew), they just didn’t seem to get it.

It was after that I had an epiphany. I realized that level of selfishness and misinterpretation is not worth it. Then the Lord reminded me of a dream my friend had about me. She saw a woman trying to poison someones opinion against me and for a minute it seemed as though it was working. But just ask quickly as I took control of the situation, everything was rectified. I actually see the dream coming to pass as well. That individual is jealous and they are trying to defame my character, but it won’t work.

I love how God will uncover what is being done in the dark. It’s just a bunch of foolishness in the midst of my loss, but God has me covered.

John 3:20-21 New Living Translation (NLT)

20 All who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear their sins will be exposed. 21 But those who do what is right come to the light so others can see that they are doing what God wants.[a]