Love Series: In the Meantime

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I’m not blogging like I used to. I just don’t have the desire anymore. But every once in a while, I feel compelled to write. This is one of those times. I’m not even sure anyone is reading. But writing has always been cathartic for me and writing things down is a good way to remember, when circumstances come to make us forget.

I’ve shared some of my God-given visions on here and I promised myself I would stop sharing, especially the vision I was shown about a mate. At this point I think it does more damage than good. So it’s pretty much on the shelf. But I am just rehearsing a little bit of it because it plays into what I am going to be doing in the meantime.

I’ve shared how God showed me something about a specific man and told me before he and I got together this man would come close to marrying the wrong person. I don’t know what will stop that from happening. and really it’s not my business. But this has been painful for me, not in the sense of me being jealous, but more because I have watched it play out and it is not easy seeing something God told you go left. Okay enough about that.

So a couple of years back, I believe the Lord told me that he would send someone my way “in the meantime”. This would be a man who I would date, even though, we would not marry. I know this may sound strange, But I am a seer and God often shows me things well in advance. It can be both good and bad. But it is what it is. That is why this blog is called a prophetic walk. I know there are those who are like me. Gifted and misunderstood and persecuted because of it.

So at the time I felt I was going to be dating, there was a Pastor in my church who showed some interest in me and just when I started to notice, he went on a sabbatical from the church, to fast and pray and after that he was gone! What a disappointment. I really thought he was that one. He started his own church and due to logistics, I was never able to get there. But later, God showed me that was not the “in the meantime man”.

At the time God revealed this to me, it became clear to me that God was kind and just and he was not going to allow me to sit on the sidelines waiting for something and me not be able to enjoy life.

Recently, I’ve had an awakening of sorts. There is this man who just caught my attention in a very odd way. He is not anyone who I know, he is totally someone, who is not in the realm of possibility for me to date, yet and still I find myself thinking about him and curious about him. Then I had a dream about him and honestly, I don’t have a clue what it all means. But God does deal with me heavily in dreams.

What I do know that whether it’s him or not (I doubt it) God is awakening me to this season that he told me about a long time ago. Someone is coming into my life and he is coming to restore what this vision broke in me. And I am excited about it!

Buffeted by the Enemy

boxingThis morning I woke up from a dream in which the enemy was attacking me. It was not pleasant at all, but I kept fighting by “pleading the blood of Jesus”. Whenever I did this, the enemy would slow up, but then start up his relentless attack again. It felt terrible, but I continued to fight. Finally the dream ended.

Although the dream was not a good one and I actually physically felt the attack, the dream helped me to realize the reason I have been feeling the way that I have lately. I am being attacked. Often we as Christians forget that there is a devil and he does not like us. Yes, it’s good to not focus on that, but we should not forget.

As I pondered the dream, I could see that the devil hates me. He was playing dirty hitting me almost like with boxing gloves and his imps were not trying to stop. It’s not like someone who dislikes you, but rather, I could feel the hatred and let me tell you friends, that is how the devil feels about you as well.

I know now that I have to get on the offense and fight back. We can’t stay in defense mode. We must learn to fight back in the realm of the spirit.

I had been asking the Lord what was wrong and God showed me. It’s wasn’t pleasant but at least I received my answer. I am being buffeted by the enemy!

1 Peter 5:8New International Version (NIV)

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

The Advantage of Knowing the End at the Beginning

theendIsaiah 46:10-11

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10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.’
11 From the east I summon a bird of prey;
from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose.
What I have said, that I will bring about;
what I have planned, that I will do.

This month is the anniversary of two visions God gave me 10 years ago. Yes, I said 10 years ago! I know some of you can’t conceive of waiting on God for something that long and honestly neither can I, lol, but it happened.

I have to say that it has not been easy nor have I always understood this journey, but what I do understand is that when God does this, there is a reason. And the reason is to create UNSHAKABLE FAITH!.

One of the visions God showed me was about wealth. God showed me that I was “pregnant” with a wealth “baby” and that I would have this “baby” “out-of-wedlock”. In other words, I would be a wealthy woman BEFORE I married. I will never forget the dream I had about this. In the dream I had a “painful” birth with this particular baby and I was alone and knew I had no “husband” when this baby came. The dream I had was so unusual because I woke up from it and fell asleep again and continued the same dream! This had never happened before and may have only happened one time since. And to confirm the meaning of the dream, that same day after having the dream someone wired me $1000, which confirmed that the dream was about money. But 10 years later, it still had not happened, but I’m on the brink.

The other dream was about marriage. Recently, I’ve had a few challenges to this vision. But at this point to try to convince me that I have not heard from God and that I need to let this go is futile. It’s really a waste of time and I consider it an insult. I don’t have a problem not being believed, but I do have a problem when you try to convince me I have not heard from God.

So why the length of time? Because God knew that my mate would exercise his will and go in another direction and that is exactly what is happening. But here is the advantage that I have. God showed it to me in the beginning. So essentially, it would be like driving  to California and God shows you everything you would encounter along the way BEFORE you got there. So if God said when you get to Oklahoma, the highway would be closed and it happened, would you stop and turn back? No, you wouldn’t. You would simply go another way because you already knew about the problems in Oklahoma.

God showed me this detour that is taking place now. He pretty much laid it out. Then he showed me more details the further I went along this journey, so you see I have an advantage. So telling me to “let go” is really a waste of time.

Now I will say what I didn’t expect was God speaking to my mate and telling him who I was to him and him saying NO. That has been my only problem. You would think after God said “she is the one” that it would be accepted right? Well that has not been the case.

My prayer partner had a dream that I was looking at my mate as he was taking another woman along and I was wondering why he was doing this, but in the dream it didn’t bother me. I guess, I am finally at that point. It’s still is a mystery to me especially since God has already spoken, but what I do know is that he is not ready for me and I am not ready for him, so he may need another crazy woman to help him see the light. lol

I still have an advantage though. And that is God showed me the END, at the BEGINNING. And since God showed me much of it, why trip?

Love Series: Letting Go Of Love

Love-Is-Letting-GoJust call me the teflon woman! I’m not even phased by what would have floored me in the past. That’s because God is doing a new thing in me. I just have to continue to obey God and WATCH him work. Yes, I will post when I feel led, but really the future is in God’s hand and when he has revealed it (Amos 3:7) there is nothing to be concerned about. Things are quickly coming to a head. Plus God told me that the truth has been reconfirmed to someone yet again through wise counsel. There is no way around it.

God showed me some things and it doesn’t mean that what was shown to others was not of God. But we can be deceived about the outcome. For example, you may meet someone who seems to rock your world and you form a real connection with that person. You may feel this person is the love of your life. But that doesn’t mean you will marry that person. And once you know you won’t, you have to let go.

God is in control and it’s smart for us to listen to HIM. God knows who best for our future. We may think we know, but God knows. Sometimes we just can’t see it because we don’t really know people.

I remember a few years back listening to someone dreams and asking God about them. I was not going to assume it was from God because of what they shared. People lie all the time and they are good liars too. lol  But I remember praying and then the person shared something that was the answer to MY prayer. The person told me they had a dream that THEIR OWN DREAMS WERE DECEIVING THEM!! I was stunned. You see God told the person that they were being deceived by their dreams. He was warning them that what they believed would not be, even if the situation seemed to manifest. This is why you need REAL discernment.

Sometimes women can get infatuated with a man and just make up stuff and it seeps over into your dreams. And it not easy if what we feel is reciprocated. But that doesn’t mean it’s God’s perfect will. In the end, God knows what is best and we must trust him him or wake up in a nightmare. I trust him with my heart. How about you?

Now here is a Word of warning. Once God says no, we should make every attempt to let go. Continuing to lead someone on, or make them think they have a future with us, when we know they don’t, can be dangerous. It’s best to clearly communicate truth as best we can and pull back. If you don’t, it can turn ugly.

Letting go of dreams and the dream of love or “love” is never easy. But the longer you hold on to it, the longer you will delay your future. Trust that God has something so much better. Just because you don’t think it’s better, doesn’t mean it isn’t. Remember. God see all and knows all. Trust him!

Amos 3:7

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7 Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing
without revealing his plan
to his servants the prophets.

Learning to Unlock Doors

Keep-Unlocked-Door-Hang-Tag-TG-0010The other morning I had a dream that I was back in my old house in my bedroom and the door was locked. Then the door between the front and back of the house was locked. But somehow I knew the front door was unlocked, so I proceeded to go out and lock it.

In real life, I was always very conscious of the doors being locked because I lived alone and there were three different ways to enter the house. After I had the dream, I didn’t have a clue what it meant.

A lot of times, God will give me the interpretation to my dreams. But sometimes I don’t get it and I will look the dream up. There is a dictionary that I find helpful. So when I looked it up I saw this definition:

To dream that you are locking the door suggests that you are closing yourself off from others. You are hesitant in letting others in and revealing your feelings. It is indicative of some fear and low self-worth. 

I believe this is what God was showing me. It’s not easy to open up once someone hurts you, or shuts a door on you. Most of the time we want to lock them out of ours lives forever. The fear is that if we open up, they will do it again. At first I thought God was telling me to lock the door. But the definition gave great enlightenment

Time heals all wounds and when someone apologizes, there is always that chance to unlock a door as long as that person comes correctly.

1 Corinthians 13:4-6

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4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

Moving Beyond God’s Revealed Will

stormOne of the most dangerous things you can do is to move past God’s revealed will. What I’m talking about is stepping past what God has already shown you and doing your own thing. If you don’t believe it, just read the book of Jonah.

God instructed Jonah, gave him an assignment and he disobeyed and ended up in the belly of a fish. And then he still ended up doing exactly what God said to do. God created the fish in order for Jonah to learn the lesson of obedience. But not only do we have to do what God says do, but there is another lesson as well. When God says NO, we must learn to back up and leave it alone, no matter how much we want something or someone.

I was chatting with an acquaintance online and she shared a dream in which God clearly was telling her no. The truth is she has had other dreams like this in the past, but I guess God wanted to remind her so that she could avoid a heartache. As I already knew, God was saying no. And then the dream came at the end of a fast, so the Lord wanted her to have clarity.

But for some reason, I don’t think she is going to heed the”no” of God. I think her desires are overtaking the voice of God. But if we allow that to happen, there will be a consequence. But when we do that, we have no one to blame but ourselves. You can’t blame God, and you can’t blame anyone else involved either. To go beyond God’s revealed will means the consequences are on you.

I pray that this person heeds God’s voice. I had a dream about her and things did not end well. I can see it happening now only because she refuses o listen to God. Remember, if we try to make God’s “no” a yes, get ready for the storm.

Jonah 1:3-4

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3 But Jonah ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the Lord.

4 Then the Lord sent a great wind on the sea, and such a violent storm arose that the ship threatened to break up.