I’m about to drop a bombshell and let the chips fall where they may. Honestly, I know the only thing that is going to get me through the days ahead is prayer and fasting. The last time I fasted God showed me he had indeed spoken to someone about something that I was wondering about and before the day ended, God showed me the truth. But everyday it’s something different. But I can’t allow that to affect me and my faith.
My prayer partner had a dream a while back and in the dream she saw God’s intended mate for me and she named him. In the dream, he decided to keep someone else around and in the dream I was unaffected. I thought I was there, but it seems I’m not. I have to get on the other side of this! Just know, all that I share is in love.
So years back God gave me a vision about a mate. Yes, I know you are tired of hearing about it, and honestly, I am tired of talking about it. But I am going to clarify some stuff and I’m sure it will get me in trouble. Because he lives in another state, it was suggested (by him) in a subtle way that I needed to move in order for this thing to happen and for a while I believed that I did need to move and felt the pressure to do it because of this man.
Unfortunately, I promised and promised that I was moving and every time I seriously decided to move, a situation would crop up concerning another woman and it was a stop sign for me. Well now that thing is full blown and all I can say is it was God who stopped me from moving, no doubt. Had I gone, this same situation would have came up and where would I be? I would be sitting in another state looking stupid. And some other stuff has happened as well. I don’t think for a minute that that my moving would have had any baring on the current state of circumstance. In other words, it all would have happened anyway!
So here I am promising and promising and finally I fasted and God told me (through a sermon) where I was is the place I am to be for now and that I did not have to run to that other city (the city was named). Then God told me to STOP promising that person I was going to move because every time I said it and didn’t do it, it would disappoint that person.
So where does that leave the vision now and how will it happen? I think I have an idea, but I’m gonna keep my mouth shut. But I do know that God is not requiring me to relocate my life especially now where the circumstance is crazy! Let’s be honest. Why would God require me to move for a man who says he is in love with someone else? And then there is some other stuff too? Think about it!
God is especially protective over his handmaids. He does not want us mistreated nor is He putting undo pressure on us to do things that are simply not required. Trust me, if God wants you to meet someone, he can have you both end up in the same place at the same time. But I believe who God has for me, will come looking of his own free will.
Well, I said it. Let the chips fall where they may! All I know to do now is fast and prayer.
Numbers 23:19 New International Version (NIV)
19 God is not human, that he should lie,
not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?