I wasn’t sitting here thinking about the whole situation that I am living through and it’s really quite exhausting. For me the only thing that is going to bring me through is prayer and fasting. It’s the only way I can get to the other side. And I know that it’s imperative to do so in this season.
This morning I was talking to my prayer partner and she has been fasting and I have been rebelling and God used her to pull me out of my rebellion (talking about food and eating) and I literally felt the shift. So what does this have to do with a messed up love story? It has everything to do with it. Often God needs us to cooperate with Him spiritually to birth out miracles. One day of fasting can change the whole trajectory of a thing. So I decided not to despise my birthright (I read that today) and not be like Esau, giving away what belongs to me for some shrimp (someone wanted to take me to the buffet for lunch)!
I wasn’t really planning a part 3, but God just kept reminding me of my Michael Jackson dream (which has been so misunderstood). I saw this friend of mine moving toward the man God said was in my future and she was so happy and just when she was about to meet him, he turned into Michael Jackson. Well, I never believed it meant this man was going to die like Michael. The dream is very clear. This woman has zero chance of meeting Michael, so according to my dream the chances of her meeting this particular man would be zero as well.
God deals with me in dreams and I have a lot of confidence in them because even when I think they are not coming to pass, they happen. This one seems like it’s iffy, but I take comfort in what God showed me. As long as I obey in prayer and fasting, I believe everything will turn out fine.
English Standard Version (ESV)
Esau Sells His Birthright
29 Once when Jacob was cooking stew, Esau came in from the field, and he was exhausted. 30 And Esau said to Jacob, “Let me eat some of that red stew, for I am exhausted!” (Therefore his name was called Edom.[a]) 31 Jacob said, “Sell me your birthright now.” 32 Esau said, “I am about to die; of what use is a birthright to me?” 33 Jacob said, “Swear to me now.” So he swore to him and sold his birthright to Jacob. 34 Then Jacob gave Esau bread and lentil stew, and he ate and drank and rose and went his way. Thus Esau despised his birthright.