10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.’
11 From the east I summon a bird of prey;
from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose.
What I have said, that I will bring about;
what I have planned, that I will do.
This month is the anniversary of two visions God gave me 10 years ago. Yes, I said 10 years ago! I know some of you can’t conceive of waiting on God for something that long and honestly neither can I, lol, but it happened.
I have to say that it has not been easy nor have I always understood this journey, but what I do understand is that when God does this, there is a reason. And the reason is to create UNSHAKABLE FAITH!.
One of the visions God showed me was about wealth. God showed me that I was “pregnant” with a wealth “baby” and that I would have this “baby” “out-of-wedlock”. In other words, I would be a wealthy woman BEFORE I married. I will never forget the dream I had about this. In the dream I had a “painful” birth with this particular baby and I was alone and knew I had no “husband” when this baby came. The dream I had was so unusual because I woke up from it and fell asleep again and continued the same dream! This had never happened before and may have only happened one time since. And to confirm the meaning of the dream, that same day after having the dream someone wired me $1000, which confirmed that the dream was about money. But 10 years later, it still had not happened, but I’m on the brink.
The other dream was about marriage. Recently, I’ve had a few challenges to this vision. But at this point to try to convince me that I have not heard from God and that I need to let this go is futile. It’s really a waste of time and I consider it an insult. I don’t have a problem not being believed, but I do have a problem when you try to convince me I have not heard from God.
So why the length of time? Because God knew that my mate would exercise his will and go in another direction and that is exactly what is happening. But here is the advantage that I have. God showed it to me in the beginning. So essentially, it would be like driving to California and God shows you everything you would encounter along the way BEFORE you got there. So if God said when you get to Oklahoma, the highway would be closed and it happened, would you stop and turn back? No, you wouldn’t. You would simply go another way because you already knew about the problems in Oklahoma.
God showed me this detour that is taking place now. He pretty much laid it out. Then he showed me more details the further I went along this journey, so you see I have an advantage. So telling me to “let go” is really a waste of time.
Now I will say what I didn’t expect was God speaking to my mate and telling him who I was to him and him saying NO. That has been my only problem. You would think after God said “she is the one” that it would be accepted right? Well that has not been the case.
My prayer partner had a dream that I was looking at my mate as he was taking another woman along and I was wondering why he was doing this, but in the dream it didn’t bother me. I guess, I am finally at that point. It’s still is a mystery to me especially since God has already spoken, but what I do know is that he is not ready for me and I am not ready for him, so he may need another crazy woman to help him see the light. lol
I still have an advantage though. And that is God showed me the END, at the BEGINNING. And since God showed me much of it, why trip?