It kind of started late last evening. I started feeling grieved in my spirit, but couldn’t figure out why. Well as the night played out, I saw why. That along with the fact that I am supposed to move today, to sleep on yet another persons couch is more than I can take. I didn’t sleep at all last night and so I will just stay up until it hits me.
I’m going to have to do an extended fast to get free from some things. Some stuff has dragged on for way too long and I just want to let it all go. I am a person who is long-suffering. I think I have a gift, but I have had enough.
I hate that I can’t even be my real self. To much hurt and pain and believing lies. But the truth is I don’t even know what I am being told half the time.
My next stay will be short. If things don’t turn around for me, I think I will be headed back to New York. At least I can get some work quicker than down here. I tell you enough is enough. I can’t take it anymore.
I have one vision left and it’s for financial increase.. But I am feeling distracted. I need to give birth to this thing, so that I can go on with my life.
New International Version (NIV)
3 They told him, “This is what Hezekiah says: This day is a day of distress and rebuke and disgrace, as when children come to the moment of birth and there is no strength to deliver them.