That Matter of Respect

A fellow blogger shared a blog post about respect and as I read it, I realize that, let’s just say, I am being reminded about respect.

I never think of myself as disrespectful and I even asked people who actually KNOW ME if I was disrespectful, but they all said no. I even asked family members who REALLY KNOW ME, particularly a couple of my brothers and you know family will tell you the truth. But they said no also.

Early this morning I was so angry, I could spit blood (not really) and I said some stuff and in true “New York” fashion, I spoke my mind. When I reread my words, I must admit, I wish I had worded them differently. Trust me it was going to be so much worse, but I stopped short of saying a whole lost of other stuff. Well, I guess the person sees me as disrespectful, even though I was just sharing out of anger. I have no point of reference because it usually just happens with this one person and also used to happen, my late father. Other than that I am fine. I realize this is something I must be more conscious of and work on. But I really am not around anybody who says I am disrespectful. Go figure.

But I also believe that you earn respect by the way you treat people. If you treat them poorly or disregard their feelings, sometimes you get the harvest from the seed that you have sown. And I am not justifying my behavior. Trust me, I am happy I didn’t say much of what I was thinking.  Again, I think that’s the New Yorker in me. lol

The matter of respect is very important and it works both ways. you get what you give. So let’s all work on that matter called respect.

Misery

It kind of started late last evening. I started feeling grieved in my spirit, but couldn’t figure out why. Well as the night played out, I saw why. That along with the fact that I am supposed to move today, to sleep on yet another persons couch is more than I can take. I didn’t sleep at all last night and so I will just stay up until it hits me.

I’m going to have to do an extended fast to get free from some things. Some stuff has dragged on for way too long and I just want to let it all go. I am a person who is long-suffering. I think I have a gift, but I have had enough.

I hate that I can’t even be my real self. To much hurt and pain and believing lies. But the truth is I don’t even know what I am being told half the time.

My next stay will be short. If things don’t turn around for me, I think I will be headed back to New York. At least I can get some work quicker than down here. I tell you enough is enough. I can’t take it anymore.

I have one vision left and it’s for financial increase.. But I am feeling distracted. I need to give birth to this thing, so that I can go on with my life.

Isaiah 37:3

New International Version (NIV)

3 They told him, “This is what Hezekiah says: This day is a day of distress and rebuke and disgrace, as when children come to the moment of birth and there is no strength to deliver them.

Pop Culture: Scandal

One of the most popular shows out is a show called Scandal. Sleep seems to have eluded me, so I decided to watch some of this past seasons episodes and one particular episode really got my attention. If you are up on Scandal you will understand. If you’re not, I will try to explain as much as I can as briefly as I can.

The show is based on a real like “fixer”. When people have scandals in their lives, they call on the character Olivia Pope to fix their problem and reputation. Well Olivia is having an affair with the President of the United States and in the episode that I was watching, the presidents wife was trying to get her husband away from Olivia, but sadly no matter how much she tried, she couldn’t get him away from his mistress. You see the President had fallen in love with a woman who was NOT his wife..

It was really quite sad. Imagine being the wife and not having any influence over your own husband and sitting on the sidelines watching him pine away for some other woman. YOUR HUSBAND!! Well, Mellie (the presidents wife) is a better woman than me. Her last ditch effort was to expose the affair, which she did on national television. He was shocked, but it still didn’t keep him away from his mistress. At first he was willing to give up everything for this forbidden love, but later, the reality of it all set in and he decided to run for reelection, which his wife knew all along (he was planning on leaving his wife).

You see most men are not going to give up their careers for a woman, even if they say they will. I believe when it comes down to it, if he is going to lose his career, he will probably let her go. You see, men are very much connected to what they do.

So the threat of a scandal and not running for president seemed to have cooled this couple down. Later in the series the President and Olivia’s relationship begins to deteriorate.

My focus was on Mellie. The worse position in the world is to focus on a man who is not focused on you. But to Mellies defense that was her husband, and I think I would fight too. I’ve never been married, so I can’t say 100%, but if I was married, I probably would. But if you are not married to a man and he chooses someone else. MOVE ON!

I despise adultery, so I am never rooting for Olivia and Fitz to be together. In the end I would hope for this marriage to work out.  But of course this is TV show called Scandal. 😉

It’s Been an Interesting Run

I am okay with moving on from some things. How would I sum it all up? I would say it was the will of man. Life goes on and I don’t have time to wait. Somethings are clear, but there is NO coming back from this one. God bless!

Love Series: What’s Good For The Goose

He’s STILL on my mind! Mr. Right!

A Prophetic Walk

A while back I shared about the vision God gave me about my mate, watching him go through wrong relationships and speaking to them. That has happened, but last Christmas a prophetess gave me a word about a man in my church observing me and then another one coming. He has since left the church, but I sometimes think that if anything escalates on the other side of the vision, God will allow me to enjoy my life as well.

I used to think God was unfair. Why do I have to watch him do what he wants and then I have to sit and feel bad? But last year, I really felt that if he (the one God showed me) willfully chooses to go in another direction, God will allow me to do the same, even if temporarily.

Today I saw something on a message board that said, “A…

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