Love Series: God Had a Purpose

no-diamond-ring-300x291Forgive me for sharing the same stories over and over (if you have heard this one before). But I shared on here that several years back, I had an encounter with a drop-dead gorgeous curly-haired Pastor and we had what could only be described as an INSTANT MAGNETIC attraction. Yes, haven’t experienced anything like it until recently. ;-). This was nothing online. It was up close and personal and in the flesh.

I shared on here that I BEGGED God for this man. I started attending his church, which was no easy feat because it was in another state, (yes, I travelled every Sunday, lol). He made such a big fuss over me in front of his congregation that the church (the women that wanted him) hated me! lol I only had one friend. I can tell you story after story, but one story stands out in my mind with him preaching this message called “Esther, is in the House”. Well mid-sermon after he said “I want you all to know, Esther is in the house”, he stopped and looked right at me as if to single me out as Esther and stared for what seemed like an eternity. I wanted to slide under the pew!!!!! Then there was the time he wanted to pay for my cab and stopped MID- SERMON to give me the money, with the entire church looking. It was crazy.

But with all of that and his bold proclamations that I was his Esther, I was not. God spoke to me in a dream audibly and said DIVORCE, letting me know he was not the one. And a prophet gave me a word letting me know I needed to stop mourning and let it go. It took about a year, even after I stopped attending the church. I almost moved to his state.

Well I said that to say, that God had a purpose for that. For me it built my self-esteem and left me with good memories of how a gorgeous man wanted me and that was the purpose. It was not for he and I to marry. This I know for sure. At the time I was sure he was my Boaz, but he WAS NOT.

I am thinking about this woman I know of who thinks this man if for her. She shared many dreams with me, but some of the dreams she shared were obviously God letting her know what she was believing for was not going to end the way she thought. Oh, right now she is in denial, but deep down she knows. She even told me she knows she will never meet this man of her dreams. I remember she shared a dream of being back in home, unmarried after all of this stuff had taken place. She seemed baffled by the dream, but I knew what it meant.

God has a purpose for it all. Don’t make it into what it’s not supposed to be. Sometimes a person is just supposed to affect our life in a certain way and THAT IS IT. They are temporary. They are NOT a root, no matter how sweet we think they are.

I can look back now with fond memories (after I forgave him, lol, but that is another story). I remember the time when a very special man singled me out and it a good memory, but I thank GOD we did not marry. It just wasn’t meant be!

Lamentations 3:37

New Revised Standard Version (NRSV)

37 Who can command and have it done,
if the Lord has not ordained it?

Mature Obedience

There is a point in life and in our walk with God when the requirement becomes different. Even if you are backslidden, but have full knowledge of the truth, the requirement on you is different than the one who is a babe in Christ. Sometimes people stop serving God and living for God, but what they don’t realize that God’s requirement from them is where you should have been, had you stayed with him.

Let’s talk about obedience. There comes a time in your walk with God, where you should listen to the Lord and obey him without him having to give you an explanation. It’s like a parent with a child. When that parents says no, there are no if ands or buts. That parent may or may not tell you why. And you dare not ask. But whether that parent explains or not, you’d better not go against him, or there will be consequences.

Mature obedience means, okay God you see something I don’t see, so I am going to keep it moving and trust you. But sadly most have to suffer the consequences of their actions.

I am seeing the area that this is hardest to do is in submitting ones love life to God. I have seen it time and time again. Men and women insisting on their own way in who to marry and ending up in divorce court because they listened to their heart (desperately wicked), emotions or lust.

I know of two cases right now when the individuals were warned, but did not submit. One of the men recently admitted, he made a mistake with an marriage to someone he met online. Surprised he admitted it because I warned him.

Then another person that I know off suffered terrible health issues because they refused to wait! So many stories. I kind of have a gift to see in the area of relationships and what I see happens, good and bad.

Mature obedience is, okay God, this is not your highest and best for me, even though it feels like it. I trust you and place it on the altar.

1 Samuel 15:22-23

King James Version (KJV)

22 And Samuel said, Hath the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.

23 For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of the Lord, he hath also rejected thee from being king.

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The Power of Prophecy

BW-message-from-GodI would never make up “Word” from the Lord, nor misinterpret what God says. Some things can’t be misinterpreted.

I recently, I heard from the mouth of the prophets, the words, DON’T FEAR, GOD MEANS WHAT HE SAID AND YOU ARE THE ONE I’VE CHOSEN!! 

Well I know enough about the prophetic to know when God speaks such strong words, it means a challenge is coming.

Folks don’t have a clue. If there was anyway I could get out of this, I would. It has nothing to do with a person either. It’s the trial and the way things are playing out. I don’t want to go through this. I really don’t.

But last year, I fasted and prayed over this very matter and the Word of the Lord came which was “God stopped  it” I think something was stopped last year. Then came the Michael Jackson dream. Two people were about to meet and the male turned into Michael Jackson. We will see if the interpretation is what I thought.

Then of course I had the dream where the thing that I was looking at died, but I looked away and did not see it. I now know God wants me to see it.

God is going to fix a fix to fix this situation (as my mother would say) What better way to get God’s purpose done, than to use DESIRE. This is going to be interesting to see how GOD does this!

If I made this all up, I would be worried. But it was all shown to me in advance, so God knows something about the situation that I don’t know. Thank God for the power of prophecy!

Numbers 23:19

King James Version (KJV)

19 God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

The Test

black-woman-with-cell-phone-annoyedYesterday, I received a call from a number that I do not normally receive calls from, but I answered it anyway. I was already suspicious because I had received a call from that number, but the person hung up on me.

This time when I answered it, the woman asked for someone who was not me, so I simply said, ‘you have the wrong number”. Well usually when that happens the person will say “I’m sorry” and hang up. Well this young woman proceeded to ask me how long I had the number and I’m thinking “that’s none of your business”. lol

By then I was getting a little irritated because I didn’t understand what her question had to do with anything. So, even though I didn’t have to answer the question, I told her about two months. So she proceeded to ask another question and by then I was annoyed. I explained to her that I already told her she had the wrong number and there was nothing else to say.

Well if someone was listening in, they would have probably said I had a bad attitude. But the truth is the woman was out of line and once she found out she had the wrong number, all she had to do was update her records and end the call. 🙂

For some reason, I felt I was being tested. Don’t ask me why, but that seemed to be a set-up. I can’t prove it, but it seemed to me this woman was fishing. And maybe God was testing me.

It was a strange experience and the reason I’m on edge a lot is because I am dealing with some deceptive stuff and it has affected me negatively. And what is sad is I end up looking bad because of it.

LifestylesI was so glad my Pastor reminded me of who I am. When you deal with odd situations, it can bring out the worse in you. And when it’s been going on for a while, it can almost send you over the edge.

I was just reading a post by a fellow blogger (see the link below) and it made me think about writing this blog. I don’t want to be perceived as a fighter, yet it seems like I always am. But there is a reason for it. Whatever this is about, I know I have got to come out of this defensive mode and rest. God knows why and when I have become this person but he loves me too much to allow me to remain the same no matter what people do.

Lately, I don’t have patience for a lot of stuff.I think it’s this age and stage of life. But I need God to make me over again. Anybody been there? It’s time to live an honest, peaceful life! 🙂

Colossians 3:15

New International Version (NIV)

15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.

Lured By Words of Flattery

An important review!

A Prophetic Walk

Lured by words of flattery ( this is a repeat)


We must be careful of words of flattery! I remember not to long ago  I met a gentleman and instantly after talking to me for about 15 minutes he launched into flattering words about how pretty I was and how when I listened to him my eyes penetrated his soul and how he would make me a good man and how he would treat me well. Then he started talking about meeting his mom and how she would love me and how he could tell I’m a woman of substance.

Now I want to say he was on target in his assessment of me (LOL) but honestly who says all of that in a 30 minute conversation. I kept thinking this man didn’t even know me. Well he gave me his number and I called him and talked to him…

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