It’s Official

crossroadI didn’t know the status of my childcare job, but sadly, I must report that it has ended. I don’t have a clue what to do next. I really like Florida and want to remain here, but there is still a lot missing from my life living here, but I’ve made the adjustment.

Returning to my hometown, New York City is out of the question. Although I would love to go visit and see family, friends and see a few broadway plays and enjoy the city, I have absolutely no desire to live there ever again.

There is really no other place for me to go. I had considered another city a while back, but that is out of the question. At one time I had a purpose for the move, but not anymore. There is no reason to move.

I dislike limbo…but this is that prophet walk!

Romans 8:28

New International Version (NIV)

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been calledaccording to his purpose.

The Mindset of the World

0409-halle-berry-getty-3I was reading an article about actress Halle Berry having a baby at the age of 46 and was shocked to hear it was a big controversy. People are saying she is too old to have a baby. I am baffled by this.

From what I gathered she did not do any fertility treatments and she was shocked to find out she was pregnant, clearly thinking that season was over for her. But surprise, surprise she is having a baby.

I immediately thought that she is pregnant and God is the giver of life, so good for her (of course being married would be good) but as for pregnancy at her age, if it wasn’t meant to be, it would not have happened.

But the world believes in killing babies, so of course they are thinking “how dare her have a baby at 46”. Well, I am not saying how old I am, but if I get pregnant, I will proudly push my belly out and dare someone to tell me I am too old. lol But that is the mindset of the world.

Let’s not forget, God is the giver of life!!

Isaiah 44:2a

New International Version (NIV)

This is what the Lord says—
he who made you, who formed you in the womb,
and who will help you:

Another Prayer

Psalm 109

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

My God, whom I praise,
do not remain silent,
for people who are wicked and deceitful
have opened their mouths against me;
they have spoken against me with lying tongues.
With words of hatred they surround me;
they attack me without cause.
In return for my friendship they accuse me,
but I am a man of prayer.
They repay me evil for good,
and hatred for my friendship.

Appoint someone evil to oppose my enemy;
let an accuser stand at his right hand.
When he is tried, let him be found guilty,
and may his prayers condemn him.
May his days be few;
may another take his place of leadership.
May his children be fatherless
and his wife a widow.
10 May his children be wandering beggars;
may they be driven[a] from their ruined homes.
11 May a creditor seize all he has;
may strangers plunder the fruits of his labor.
12 May no one extend kindness to him
or take pity on his fatherless children.
13 May his descendants be cut off,
their names blotted out from the next generation.
14 May the iniquity of his fathers be remembered before the Lord;
may the sin of his mother never be blotted out.
15 May their sins always remain before the Lord,
that he may blot out their name from the earth.

16 For he never thought of doing a kindness,
but hounded to death the poor
and the needy and the brokenhearted.
17 He loved to pronounce a curse—
may it come back on him.
He found no pleasure in blessing—
may it be far from him.
18 He wore cursing as his garment;
it entered into his body like water,
into his bones like oil.
19 May it be like a cloak wrapped about him,
like a belt tied forever around him.
20 May this be the Lord’s payment to my accusers,
to those who speak evil of me.

21 But you, Sovereign Lord,
help me for your name’s sake;
out of the goodness of your love, deliver me.
22 For I am poor and needy,
and my heart is wounded within me.
23 I fade away like an evening shadow;
I am shaken off like a locust.
24 My knees give way from fasting;
my body is thin and gaunt.
25 I am an object of scorn to my accusers;
when they see me, they shake their heads.

26 Help me, Lord my God;
save me according to your unfailing love.
27 Let them know that it is your hand,
that you, Lord, have done it.
28 While they curse, may you bless;
may those who attack me be put to shame,
but may your servant rejoice.
29 May my accusers be clothed with disgrace
and wrapped in shame as in a cloak.

30 With my mouth I will greatly extol the Lord;
in the great throng of worshipers I will praise him.
31 For he stands at the right hand of the needy,
to save their lives from those who would condemn them.

Let Judgment Begin!

I am looking at so much chaos and I see I am being implicated where I am not even present. While I am observing this, I was listening to my Pastor preaching on releasing judgment and so that I what I am going to do.

I pray that every spirit of confusion and chaos be made subject to the power of the Holy Ghost.I arrest every multiple personality and I ask that God would expose all of the deception of the enemy.

I pray against the deceitfulness of wealth which blinds and make people believe that they are in right standing with God when they are not.



Touch not my anointed and do my prophets no harm. For what has been sown against me THIS DAY let them reap what has been sown THIS DAY in the MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS!!

Let judgment begin NOW in the name of JESUS! And in the midst of it, show them your love and compassion!

The Error of My Ways

God showed me what has been missing from my message in a particular situation. It’s been the LOVE that has been missing. I am not talking about falling in love, but just the absence of love with my message.

What happened was that I got wounded and mad and even with a true message, it can be lost when the person senses no love. And if they have something or someone to compare it to, it can be lost.

God is showing me that I must add love even when people hurt me. I am a loving person, but I have become someone I didn’t recognize because of matters of the heart. But sometimes you have to remove the heart from it. Keep it guarded and then you can share the true love of God.

I’ve learned a lot in this situation. It’s in God’s hands. I am taking my hands off of it.

1 Corinthians 13

New International Version (NIV)

13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.