Hard To Understand

confused-face-1-It’s strange when something is of God, but it doesn’t work out. But it can happen. I’ve lived through God revealing his will and it not happening. Destiny is not left up to chance it’s a matter of choice.

What is hard about this is I NEVER asked for or wanted this. NEVER. And then the Lord told me everything that was going to happen along the way and it all happened. Then God showed me what is happening right now,.so what is the problem you might say? The problem is that I cannot shake this feeling that this is not going to happen.

As I watched this movie today, I was reminded that in real life, if you have  two people who are not on the same page, then it’s not going to happen. And I can accept that.

What I don’t understand is the why? God knew the end, so why did he bother to tell me what would happen in the beginning. God knew it would not happen, so I am confused about they why?

Honestly, I don’t want to hear anything like “it may still happen”. It’s stupid to keep “holding on” forever with no real manifestation. I’ve concluded TODAY that FOR ME I can no longer hold on without some sort of manifestation. I can’t figure this one out, but God knows.

Sometimes things seem like God or they are of God and they just don’t work out and there is nothing that you can do, but keep living. God will give you insight and understand later on. As the old folks would say “you will understand it better by and by”.

This could be for someone else, but I feel this so strongly….Perhaps I am going to have a chance to make another choice!

Judges 14:1-4

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Samson’s Marriage

14 Samson went down to Timnah and saw there a young Philistine woman. When he returned, he said to his father and mother, “I have seen a Philistine woman in Timnah; now get her for me as my wife.”

His father and mother replied, “Isn’t there an acceptable woman among your relatives or among all our people? Must you go to the uncircumcised Philistines to get a wife?”

But Samson said to his father, “Get her for me. She’s the right one for me.” (His parents did not know that this was from the Lord, who was seeking an occasion to confront the Philistines; for at that time they were ruling over Israel.)

It’s Only a Test Pt. 2

TemptationJust got back in from the movies. It really ministered to me. I went to see a movie called Temptations and now I understand my dream.

Without giving away the plot, I will say that God showed me that you must let people make their choices and move forward with what they believe. And they will have to live with the consequences of their actions. God is showing me he has someone new for me and that I will go on and be blessed with a happy life.

Temptation was a cautionary tale about the consequences of ones actions. But once we cross that bridge, there is no going back. Today is a crossroads and there is no going back!

Sometimes God has given you his best, but you feel there is something better. And then you think you find it and it destroys you. For me, there is not much more to say. Life is going on and God is going to bless me with a Man of God! Yes, I got that out of a movie. lol

It’s a good movie. I have my little criticisms, but I’m not going to share them. You can go and see for yourself!

Snake in My Front Bush

garter snakeYesterday, when the mother of the toddler I care for, dropped him off, she said she saw a snake in my front bushes. Now I am strictly a city girl and don’t do snakes, like most women, but what was truly amazing was no matter how much she tried to show me where it was, I could not see it! But I will be using my side door when I take my toddler out! lol I was looking out the window this morning and still looking for it and still not seeing it and the Lord dropped something in my spirit.

Having a snake in my front bush near my door is very close. And sometimes we can let someone get very close and not realize they are deceptive. You see the adversary is very crafty and we must use discernment and make sure we are wise about who and what we allow near our “front door” so to speak. I could not for the life of me see the snake. It was in the bush but I just couldn’t see it. And sometimes that is how we are. We are just blind and can’t see, but that is why God sends those who can see for us.

Have you ever had someone warn you of something or someone and you discounted it because you thought they were jealous or their motives were wrong? Well sometimes God uses people to get our attention and we need to not always think they have the wrong motive.

I’ve been trying to warn someone of something for a long time. They thought my motives were wrong and I understand that. But what I was sharing was truth and not an act of sabotage. Honestly, like a prophet said, I am a protector and I was trying to protect the person. From experience, I knew the person would turn out to be a “snake in the bush” and it appears the person who I warned is beginning to see. But honestly, now I think it’s about to get ugly. This week will call for some prayer and fasting. I know it’s going to be a rough ride.

The next time God has someone to warn you that someone is deceptive or a liar, steer clear. Again, I won’t be using my front door for a while and some of us should to that same thing. Steer clear…when something or someone is deceptive, leave them alone!

Gotta run…going to see that movie I dreamed about. Will blog about it when I get home. 🙂

Genesis 3:1

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The Fall

3 Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?”

Resurrection of Hope Pt.2

hopeIt’s in this season that we should expect the resurrection of things in our own lives. I know that is what happened to me yesterday. I had a resurrection of a sort.

A week or so ago, God showed me something in a dream and the dream had a “date-stamp” on it. In the dream I could see a scene from a movie that officially came out yesterday and sure enough yesterday I had a resurrection of hope!

I was watching my toddler and God spoke to me clearly about something when I went into my kitchen and then the Lord reminded me of the dream, and then I saw something else, and boom! Just like God showed me.

In this season we should expect God to resurrect things in our lives that were dead or almost dead. God knows how to do it. God knows just how long to let something go on and exactly when to reel it in before it get to the place of being irreparable. What God did for me was give me hope and remind me that HE has the last word.

Trust God for everything. He knows what is best for us. We think we know, but GOD KNOWS!

Isaiah 46:10

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10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.’

Resurrection of Hope!

resurrection 1This is the season in which we celebrate the resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I felt strongly in my spirit that we need to guard against focusing on other things lest they become idolatry. Yesterday, I so wanted to go to our Good Friday Service at my church, but I had to work. I started remembering the days when I lived in New York and we would spend all day in church, following my brothers (the three who are ministers) as they went from church to church, preaching the seven last words of Christ.

I miss the sacred solemn times of remembering what Christ did for us on the cross. Seems like times are changing and people just do  what they want, but oh the danger of forgetting about the God of the universe who allows all of us to do what we do here on earth. We dare not put ANYTHING before him, lest it become a god!

Tomorrow is the day on which we remember that Jesus AROSE! The grave could not keep Him. After all of His suffering for us, He was buried and the Enemy thought it was over but it wasn’t. The hope of  the disciples was GONE. The One who they had walked with was gone, or so they thought. But little did they know that Jesus was going to and had arose!

This is what our faith is built on. How dare us not even take the time to acknowledge THE ONE in this season. God help us to give YOU what is due to you! And that is all the glory and the praise! You don’t want to touch His glory!

John 20:15-17

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15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?”

Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”

16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.”

She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”).

17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’”

Lured By Words of Flattery

Lured by words of flattery ( this is a repeat)


We must be careful of words of flattery! I remember not to long ago  I met a gentleman and instantly after talking to me for about 15 minutes he launched into flattering words about how pretty I was and how when I listened to him my eyes penetrated his soul and how he would make me a good man and how he would treat me well. Then he started talking about meeting his mom and how she would love me and how he could tell I’m a woman of substance.

Now I want to say he was on target in his assessment of me (LOL) but honestly who says all of that in a 30 minute conversation. I kept thinking this man didn’t even know me. Well he gave me his number and I called him and talked to him once, but honestly I was being lured in by words of flattery.

Be careful about words of flattery. Words from people claiming to know and love us when they haven’t even spent any time with us. Yes it makes you feel good. It made me feel good and I needed to hear that but honestly I knew I did not need to draw closer to that situation. God put a stop sign in the road and thank God I heeded it.

Some things are just a trap. They sound good, or look good or smell good, but actually it’s an occasion for the enemy to come into our lives and ensnare us further.

Beware of the trap of flattery even from Christians.

Proverbs 6:24:

24 To keep thee from the evil woman, from the flattery of the tongue of a strange woman.