It’s strange when something is of God, but it doesn’t work out. But it can happen. I’ve lived through God revealing his will and it not happening. Destiny is not left up to chance it’s a matter of choice.
What is hard about this is I NEVER asked for or wanted this. NEVER. And then the Lord told me everything that was going to happen along the way and it all happened. Then God showed me what is happening right now,.so what is the problem you might say? The problem is that I cannot shake this feeling that this is not going to happen.
As I watched this movie today, I was reminded that in real life, if you have two people who are not on the same page, then it’s not going to happen. And I can accept that.
What I don’t understand is the why? God knew the end, so why did he bother to tell me what would happen in the beginning. God knew it would not happen, so I am confused about they why?
Honestly, I don’t want to hear anything like “it may still happen”. It’s stupid to keep “holding on” forever with no real manifestation. I’ve concluded TODAY that FOR ME I can no longer hold on without some sort of manifestation. I can’t figure this one out, but God knows.
Sometimes things seem like God or they are of God and they just don’t work out and there is nothing that you can do, but keep living. God will give you insight and understand later on. As the old folks would say “you will understand it better by and by”.
This could be for someone else, but I feel this so strongly….Perhaps I am going to have a chance to make another choice!
New International Version (NIV)
14 Samson went down to Timnah and saw there a young Philistine woman. 2 When he returned, he said to his father and mother, “I have seen a Philistine woman in Timnah; now get her for me as my wife.”
3 His father and mother replied, “Isn’t there an acceptable woman among your relatives or among all our people? Must you go to the uncircumcised Philistines to get a wife?”
But Samson said to his father, “Get her for me. She’s the right one for me.” 4 (His parents did not know that this was from the Lord, who was seeking an occasion to confront the Philistines; for at that time they were ruling over Israel.)