God is giving me an education on breaking a soul-tie. I’m having to let go of my little toddler because God said so. Honestly, this is much harder than I thought it would be. I think it would be easier if I had a clean break. But I’ve given his mom two weeks.
My heart is breaking. I have bonded with this child and I don’t want to let him go, but I have to. As I am going through this it’s giving me more compassion for someone I know who is going through something similar only its a heart matter which is ten times worse. But the truth is deep down inside people know when they have to let go and the longer they hold on and cave into the pressure, the worse it’s going to be.
What I am trying to do is keep my heart. I don’t want to cave in and obligate myself further. I had the privilege of caring for this little boy for this time and I am grateful. I am questioning myself, but the truth is, I need to earn a real living and that helps me know it’s time to let go. But it’s that unconditional love that pulls on my heart strings. I just gave him some grapes and he said “thank you” in baby talk and it melted my heart.
But here is the truth. This child does not belong to me. He’s not mine. This was just a season and it’s over. God has more income, more life, and my own family. I have to let go.
God has something or someone better for you. It’s hard to let go of the familiar to move into the unfamiliar. But trust God! He has a plan, but you won’t receive it until you let go of what feels comfortable to receive the new! It’s not going to happen until you LET GO or the thing you love!
Amplified Bible (AMP)
22 After these events, God tested and proved Abraham and said to him, Abraham! And he said, Here I am.
2 [God] said, Take now your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah; and offer him there as a burnt offering upon one of the mountains of which I will tell you.