For the past few weeks I have been feeling miserable. I couldn’t put my finger on it and I actually was just trying to live with how I was feeling. But yesterday I believe the Lord finally identified what it is. I’ve been caring for this sweet little toddler and honestly childcare has terrible pay. Unless you are a nanny working for upscale clients, you can’t make good money unless you have a lot of children. But even then it doesn’t pay well.
Well after weeks of prayer it occurred to me that I need to make a change. This job, like my tenant was temporary provision, but it was never meant to be long-term. I know this season is just about up. I just didn’t want to let go.
You see I wanted to stick with it. I guess I want to be like everyone else. But my walk is a prophetic one and one of the prophetic words given me is that I would be doing flexible, unorthodox work that afforded me freedom, and that is how my work life has always been.
The other reason it’s been hard for me to let go of this baby is because I’ve grown attached to the unconditional love of this little boy and he is comfortable with me. You can have a soul-tie to anyone, Man, woman, child, pet. When bonds are created, it’s hard to let go of them. Right now he is feeding himself some yogurt and asking me if I want to taste some, in baby talk. lol So precious.
But no matter how much someone pulls on our heart strings, if God say to shift or let go, then you have to let go. I’m looking at him now and missing him already.
God is about to break a soul-tie. In my case, it’s one that I have been praying for God to break. This time it’s going to be permanent. Just watch and see. It’s starting already. I just got some information that let me know things are going just like God planned it. Same situation is about to take place, with a different person. This one may be uglier than the last one. Wow!
SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:
I speak to those who have yielded to the fear of deprivation. Do not allow your fear to override faith in My provision. Put your trust in Me to bless you and to meet your needs. You belong to Me. Am I not able to do what is necessary to get you through a time of leanness? I AM, says the Lord.
Psalm 24:1-5 The earth is the LORD’S, and all its fullness, the world and those who dwell therein. For He has founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the waters. Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD? Or who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who has not lifted up his soul to an idol, nor sworn deceitfully. He shall receive blessing from the LORD, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.