It’s easier to ignore stuff and pretend you don’t care. This way you don’t have to worry about feeling pain and hurt. But the minute you start caring then you have to feel. I didn’t even realize what I have been doing for a while. I’ve endured so much pain, I decided to harden myself as a form of protection. But now I am starting to feel the pain again. The reality of my situation and what I am up against is making me feel overwhelmed.
God is however, giving me insight. He knows if I didn’t have the dreams and friends dreams and the word of the Lord, I would not be able to hold on. As always, God has someone to come along and give me a timely word and instruction. It just amazes me.
Nothing is going to break this soul-tie like prayer and fasting. It’s easier to become a stone wall then to have a heart. But at this point I have to have a heart and feel the pain. I was asking my prayer partner why I have suffered so much and been rejected so much. She knows my history and she just encouraged me. God has a great blessing. The greatest pain is rejection. But God has favored me and right now, I accept that!
Jesus himself was despised and rejected of men and a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief, so I am in good company. And God has also said the LAST shall be FIRST. Then I heard the Lord say be HAPPY you were rejected and pray for the accepted one.
It is well. God is yet speaking. When you find yourself in a faith fight, DON’T GIVE UP!
King James Version (KJV)
9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.