Reserved For the New Man

saul epipharyI’m kind of amazed at how God has equipped me to go through this particular challenge that I’m in. God graces us for what he has called us to. I am NOT boasting, but I know few people who can stand in the midst of what appears to be an insurmountable mountain; BUT GOD!

When you find yourself in a faith fight the key is to listen to God more than man.God sees the thoughts and intents of the heart and he knows what is really going on. And He knows the end from the beginning. So why trip?

Years ago the Lord told me that the man that I would ultimately end up with (hard to admit, but I believe I know who he is) would almost marry someone else. Yeah that is a challenge. If a man says he loves a woman and she loves him, that is the time to give up right?. But I am going to see this to the end especially since God showed it to me YEARS before the two met.

Then God revealed much of the scenario in a series of dreams and even gave several dreams to a few friends of mine. But the Lord told me last year to just watch it and he showed me in a dream that it would die. I think what gives me comfort is that they have never physically met. Yeah so how are they in love? It’s cyber love, which may or may not be real. But they say it is, so I accept that.

Now I don’t discount that kind of love. I have a family member that met his wife that way, but in their case they met in under a year. You gotta wonder about a love so great that the two people have never met. But again, I am not going to discount it. It is what it is.

Today I’ve been reading a lot of “chatter”, ( played out in a public forum) some of which I suspect is for my benefit, LOL. It reminds me of the couple I talked about on Facebook. Always saying stuff and communicating online on facebook and twitter for all to see. And then they get mad when people ask them why such a public display. I personally thought what the facebook couple did was a little much and kind of phony, but to each his own. When you are in the same household there is no need for that, in my opinion

Anyway, I’m okay with what is going on. God told me that just like Samson, it’s of the Lord, (amazing) but it won’t end in marriage. And guess what? I believe GOD more than MAN.

People want to get mad with me for holding on to what God said. Listen the Lord told me this. I couldn’t make this up if I tried and why would I? Who wants to watch the man God said is for them, proclaim his forever love to someones else? Who would even want to come behind something like this. So don’t get mad at me. God said it; I didn’t. I did not and would not choose this.

I asked the Lord why they can’t be together because they want to be and God said because he is picking for NOW, but in a MINUTE God said, I am about to transform him by a Damascus Road experience.. You were made for THAT MAN! That made me want to shout! Makes perfect sense to me. WOW!

God talked to me a while back about the old man being transformed to a new man. Because I have seen this happen to other men, I believe it. That is why he and I have never been able to gel. We don’t fit now, but later. look out!

I trust God and I will see this through to the end. God knows more than me, so I am not going to trip. Meanwhile I am going to sit and watch like God instructed me. Turning away would cause me to miss the ending.

Numbers 23:19

King James Version (KJV)

19 God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

Love Series Being Vulnerable

VulnerableIt’s not easy to show how you really feel. I shared earlier about hiding the truth and not even realizing it. But it’s okay to admit to some things, but you also don’t have to tell it all. The Bible still says to guard your heart.

I take issue with women who woo men. I don’t think it’s God’s way. The story of Hosea and Gomer is a beautiful story and Hosea kept loving no matter what Gomer did, but Hosea was the man and Gomer was the woman. I do not believe God ever wanted a woman to woo a man. In the end, it never works in my opinion, because it’s out of God’s order.

But as women we can warm up and not be so cold and protected. We need to let men be men and figure out what they want on their own. Yes, I’m growing. Wooing and fighting for a man never works.

But there is a way to let a man know that you don’t mind him coming to visit, no matter how unorthodox the visit is. lol It’s okay to let him know you miss him when he’s gone.

I guess what I’m saying ladies is allow God to soften your heart and don’t worry about being hurt. The key is to not put yourself out there and give too much too soon. But being warm and friendly never hurt anyone. 😉

1 Corinthians 13:4

Amplified Bible (AMP)

Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastfulor vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.

Projecting Into the Future


 Let truth rule and reign in your heart, and be done with the presumption that comes with projecting yourself into the future.  No matter how much you think you know about what is ahead, you only have a glimpse of that which has not yet become reality.  And, the truth will be exaggerated and distorted by your imagination.  It will benefit you greatly if you can get real and stay real right here and now, says the Lord. 1 Corinthians 13:9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 

I shared earlier that when I read this it it hit me in the pit of my stomach. After I asked the Lord about it, he said to share it again because the message is for someone.

For me even though I talk about vision, truthfully it’s hard for me to project myself into a future with anybody. I don’t do that fantasy thing and imagining myself with someone, believe it or not. The reason is because I”ve gone through that before and was sorely disappointed. So for me trying to imagine myself in someone elses world is virtually impossible.

But many people do that. They see themselves in the future with a certain job, or career or in a certain relationship and yes, it’s good to envision things, but until it’s happened, I find it’s best to be careful with that.

The imagination is a powerful thing. Some people have problems with a strong fantasy life. Both can get out of control and you must submit your imagination and thought life to the Lord.

God is the only one that holds the future. No matter how much you are sure of, it’s in HIS hands. I’m glad I learned that. I barely use my imagination. I did when I was younger and I would say it wasn’t good. But that is just me.

Today I believe God is telling someone to not project into the future. He has something completely different in mind. Trust him!

Love Unguarded

love unguardedI know I have a lot of love to give. I have to admit it. I would know exactly what to do to make a man happy. I absolutely am not cold.

I remember the Lord told me years ago that my mate would be a man that would need a lot of love. I have never forgotten that. God even showed me an example of how he wanted me to treat my man. I have never forgotten that either. Just thinking about it makes me chuckle.

It’s time to tear down the walls and warm up. I know it and I can feel it. It’s time to love! (when Boaz comes) lol


Song of Songs 1:2

New International Version (NIV)


Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth—
for your love is more delightful than wine.