The Truth of the Matter Pt. 2

ICare logoThis evening I read the spirit of prophecy and it hit me in the pit of my stomach, Reading it made me realize that     sometimes my posts come from a place of protecting my heart and it’s hard for me to admit the truth. I will keep that truth to myself, but I have been writing some things from a defensive mode.It’s like I’m giving off the wrong impression.

I’m not a liar, but God is showing me that sometimes when we are not honest with ourselves, we end up telling unintentional lies.

Since I’ve started blogging I have put more and more of myself out there, but even though I am realizing  the truth, I don’t have to say what it is and I won’t.

What I will say is that I care more than I want to admit and I have to stop pretending I don’t. That’s all. Probably said too much already.

Sometimes we have to be honest with ourselves and take it to God. He will help us face it all.


  Let truth rule and reign in your heart, and be done with the presumption that comes with projecting yourself into the future.  No matter how much you think you know about what is ahead, you only have a glimpse of that which has not yet become reality.  And, the truth will be exaggerated and distorted by your imagination.  It will benefit you greatly if you can get real and stay real right here and now, says the Lord.

1 Corinthians 13:9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 

Don’t Let the Chatter Stop You Pt. 3

truthI am so proud of myself. I went through my own personal battle and I believe I got what I wanted. So what did want you may ask? Well I didn’t want to be communicated with or encouraged or whatever, all while someone is emotionally involved with someone else. I can accept someone else being with someone else as long as they are not bothering me too. Make sense? Any rational person can understand that.I don’t want  to be encouraged to hang on to something all the while, they are doing what they want. I’ve shut some access doors and if a week goes by and I receive no messages, I will be happy.

But I’m also like a kid at Christmas waiting to see how GOD is going to do this. From the outside it looks like a done deal, but it looked like that before.But God sees and knows something we don’t know. So when you are looking at a situation and it looks like it’s a done deal, if God says it isn’t, that means it isn’t. God knows it’s fragile and God knows what can blow it apart.

I know dishonesty y is one of the things that can destroy relationships. A lot of women feel they have to lie, in order to get a man. But then the relationship is on a shaky foundation. I was talking to a woman not too long ago and she was saying she understood why a woman would take something to her grave. In other words, she understood that it was necessary to hide something in order to get a man. Honestly, it kind of makes you understand why people resort to detective work. You almost have to because people are just not honest.

I am committed to telling the truth about it all. But God has a way of letting the truth come to the surface. I really hate to see people deceived. But sometimes we have to let God do it. Love it blind, but at some point the scales will come off. This is going to be interesting!

John 8:32

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32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Now I Understand Pt. 2

Simple_rainbow_drawingThere is nothing more difficult than waiting. Especially, when you think you want something and you can’t see why you can’t have it. But I continue to learn that it’s best to wait on God. He makes everything beautiful when you wait for his perfect timing.

Sometimes the wait is to allow the truth of a situation to emerge. Moving too soon will keep us blinded and we won’t have an clear picture of what or whom we are dealing with.

This week, I learned why God has me waiting in one particular situation. No matter how old you get or who thinks your life is being wasted, WAIT ON GOD. God knows more than we know.

God knows why you don’t need a house now. God know the delay in having a child. God know why you don’t need to be in a relationship with that person now or ever. God knows. Pushing past his delay’s or no’s is too costly, and they end up being time wasters.

People try to make me feel bad about my age, my stage of life., what they think I have not accomplished, but guess what? I would rather be right where I am with the gifts of God flowing in my life, than to have multi-millions  of dollars (oh, and I’m going to have that too). But when I do get that, I will be ready. I won’t go off and forget about God and become selfish and full of myself. I won’t become a shopaholic. When God allows my wealth to come, I’ll be ready for it.

Listen, you may have wanted to connect with someone in a relationship, but God has prevented it. You’d better thank God! He knows what is best! Thank him. That is what I now understand better than ever! GOD KNOWS.

Pushing past the stop signs can destroy you. I don’t care. I’m going to wait on God!

Psalm 27:14

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14 Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Now I Understand

Simple_rainbow_drawingBoth of my parents are in heaven, so I can talk about this. As I look back to growing up, I now understand why my mom dealt with my Dad the way she did. You see as hard as it is for me to admit, I think my Dad had some emotions problems. Yes, he functioned fine and was a hard worker who was NEVER unemployed his whole life.  But he had emotional problems. I often wondered if he was abused as a child. And there are many people like that. They are hard workers and some are successful, but they have emotional problems.

Growing up, I saw my mother endure a lot at the hands of my father. There were rarely any happy times between my parents that I recall seeing. My mom was a sweet gentle woman and as I got older, I felt she needed to stand up for herself with my Dad. But time and time again my mother would let me know it wouldn’t help the situation and she was right.

I’m sure in their younger years she learned the best way to handle my father was to not be confrontational, (which wasn’t her personality anyway). so that is why she just “took stuff” off of him.

Honestly, I understand why she did that. Confrontation is important, but sometimes it’s best to leave a situation alone once you know a person is not emotionally well. In a case like that, you should just pray for them and steer clear, all while showing love.

It’s hard for me. Watching my mom made me not want to take any mess off a man. Consequently, I have a low tolerance for foolishness. But I have to be careful too because my intolerance can make things worse sometimes. I feel like I always have to “fight” for myself. It’s something I am asking God to change in me.

Meanwhile, my mothers method was good in one sense, but in another sense it wasn’t. She internalized stuff and it made her sick and took her home prematurely. I think it happens often when woman stay with abusive men.

Often people hold me to a very high standard that they won’t hold themselves to. They become a victim and NEVER own things. In that case, those are people you should stay away from. Let God deal with it and work on yourself. That is what I am doing.

Faith TabernacleMarch 6, 2013
SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS: I heard in the Spirit the sound of a trumpet blowing.  And, the Lord said,  “A call is going forth to awaken those who have been asleep spiritually.  Only those who have an ear to hear will heed the call, and not everyone will understand the call.  It is an awakening to new life and renewal that will bring restoration.  Those who hear will begin a journey in the Spirit.  It will be hard to let go of the past in some cases, but a desire for more of Me will be strong motivation to move on.” 

Exodus 40:36-38 Whenever the cloud was taken up from above the tabernacle, the children of Israel would go onward in all their journeys.  But if the cloud was not taken up, then they did not journey till the day that it was taken up. For the cloud of the LORD was above the tabernacle by day, and fire was over it by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel, throughout all their journeys.