Yesterday, I received a powerful prophetic word from my mentors son and part of the word was talking about not judging a thing too soon. I knew exactly what that meant. Sometimes when I am going through things, I “sum it all up” before I can see exactly where God is going, Case in point being “made to move”, (a post I did earlier this week).
I was sharing that I felt forced to move out of the home of the child I am taking care of, into my own home. I know it was the right thing to do, The first day was very good. My toddler was very happy and everything went smoothly, but today, was a different story. He has a limited amount of toys at my house, and we watched the same children’s movies over and over and then he didn’t take a nap. Anyone with children knows that a toddler missing their nap is a recipe for disaster. By the evening he was cranky and crying and there was not much more to do. .
By the time he left, I was exhausted and vexed and I know this is not going to work either. So I was telling my prayer partner that the transition to my own home might be the first step to giving it up and she agreed. The truth is I am so discontent that I don’t know what to do with myself. But what I do know is that at this time in my life, I can’t afford to continue to do things that are not fulfilling and as much as I love this little boy, this is not it.
I am going to have to stop “summing things up” in my blogs post. But then again, it shows the process to following God is not that simple and I’m still learning and have not arrived, this I know for sure.
The story is NOT over and I feel like I don’t know where I belong anymore, but I need a change. Pray for me!
New International Version (NIV)
18 “Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
I may have posted something similar to this before, but as time passes you get more insight and understanding of things that God has said.
Someone is constantly reminding me of things that I said in these blog posts, but sometimes when I reread the posts, I see that what I felt then is not what I am feeling now. Not that God’s vision has changed, but what has changed is my understanding of how God is going to do it.
For years now, I have considered relocating to be near a man, but I now know that thought did not come from God. The thought was introduced to me and I thought it was from God so everything else seemed to confirm it. But as I have learned if you have the wrong thought in your mind, the confirmations are also wrong.
I remember clearly struggling with the thought of moving and I fasted and God spoke through a message and the minister said YOU are the one, THIS is the place and NOW is the time. And he also said “and you don’t have to run up to that city either and then the minister named the city that I was considering moving to. That was a very clear-cut answer, but even after that I still thought I needed to move and felt pressure from someone to do so. Then every time I considered it something would happen to let me know that was NOT what I should do.
So on Christmas 2011, a prophetess gave me the best Christmas present. It was a word from the Lord and God was very clear. The man who had been observing me at my church was not the one, but another man was COMING.
So here is what the word come means:
[kuhm] Show IPA verb, came, come, com·ing, noun
verb (used without object).to approach or move toward a particular person or place: Come here;.
to arrive by movement
or in the course of progress:
to approach or arrive in time, in succession, to move into view; appear;
.to extend; reach:
As impossible as it seems, God has settled it in my spirit that my mate is coming to me. It seems impossible, but with God all things are possible and I believe what God said is TRUE. Plus, it already happened once, so God can do it again.
Ladies, just wait on your Boaz. He may not know you yet, or he may not know it yet, but he is going to come to you. Just be READY!
New International Version (NIV) 22 He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord.