To Believe or Not to Believe..

foolis that the question?

We should always trust God, no matter what the circumstance. He knows all and sees all, so when he tells us something we must trust.

But trusting people is a whole different matter. I think it all boils down to patterns of behavior. If someone asks you to go out to dinner on Friday, but they keep calling and cancelling and they did that 3-4 times before you were supposed to meet, you would probably say “listen, just forget it”.

And then if they ask you a month later to meet them for dinner, the first question out of your mouth would be “are going to cancel the dinner date again?” Then if they said no, you may give them the benefit of the doubt and say yes. But if it happened again, few of us would give them another chance because you are seeing a pattern in their behavior.

So what would make you give them another chance? Well I know for me something would have to be RADICALLY different. They couldn’t just ask me a question. The person would probably have to show up and pick me up and take me right to the restaurant, when they asked me. lol

What’s that saying…“fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me”. I want to say “fool me multiple times, and I’m just a fool”.

When people keep making a fool out of you, you learn from it and move on. You forgive, but the only way to believe them the next time is if something is radically different. And if you don’t see that..keep moving along.

An Unexpected Shift?

I get home from church early on Sunday’s because I attend the 9am service at my church, but today was a very odd day. When I arrived at church I began to observe how a lot of the women were dressed and got so grieved for some reason. It’s not like I haven’t noticed it before.

I understand that you cannot legislate how people dress, but some of these women have been in the church for a while and you would think they should know better, but I guess it’s all about teaching. But there is a strong seductive spirit in the church and I suspect that there is something that is about to happen that is going to open up the floodgates even more.

I then I noticed something else, which I won’t detail, but I suspect my divorced Pastor may be moving toward remarrying. I can’t explain it, but while I’ve been so happy with my church, today, I felt grieved through the entire service.

I honestly felt like I should stop going and not look back. It’s so strange. And then there was a minister’s wife who contacted me on this site a few weeks ago and honestly I felt it was significant. Almost like I should connect with them, but he doesn’t have a physical building as far as I know. I’m not sure, but I am shocked by what I sense. But it feels like it could be a prophetic shift. This is blowing my mind, but I need to be exactly where God wants me to be and not under anything that is not of him.

Sometimes God will shift us suddenly. It’s almost like I felt the connection to this ministry break. I’ll talk to a few of my “go to” people and see what they sense. But in my mind, I am gone.

John 2:5

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His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”

Hard To Understand

confused-face-1-It’s strange when something is of God, but it doesn’t work out. But it can happen. I’ve lived through God revealing his will and it not happening. Destiny is not left up to chance it’s a matter of choice.

What is hard about this is I NEVER asked for or wanted this. NEVER. And then the Lord told me everything that was going to happen along the way and it all happened. Then God showed me what is happening right now,.so what is the problem you might say? The problem is that I cannot shake this feeling that this is not going to happen.

As I watched this movie today, I was reminded that in real life, if you have  two people who are not on the same page, then it’s not going to happen. And I can accept that.

What I don’t understand is the why? God knew the end, so why did he bother to tell me what would happen in the beginning. God knew it would not happen, so I am confused about they why?

Honestly, I don’t want to hear anything like “it may still happen”. It’s stupid to keep “holding on” forever with no real manifestation. I’ve concluded TODAY that FOR ME I can no longer hold on without some sort of manifestation. I can’t figure this one out, but God knows.

Sometimes things seem like God or they are of God and they just don’t work out and there is nothing that you can do, but keep living. God will give you insight and understand later on. As the old folks would say “you will understand it better by and by”.

This could be for someone else, but I feel this so strongly….Perhaps I am going to have a chance to make another choice!

Judges 14:1-4

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Samson’s Marriage

14 Samson went down to Timnah and saw there a young Philistine woman. When he returned, he said to his father and mother, “I have seen a Philistine woman in Timnah; now get her for me as my wife.”

His father and mother replied, “Isn’t there an acceptable woman among your relatives or among all our people? Must you go to the uncircumcised Philistines to get a wife?”

But Samson said to his father, “Get her for me. She’s the right one for me.” (His parents did not know that this was from the Lord, who was seeking an occasion to confront the Philistines; for at that time they were ruling over Israel.)

It’s Only a Test Pt. 2

TemptationJust got back in from the movies. It really ministered to me. I went to see a movie called Temptations and now I understand my dream.

Without giving away the plot, I will say that God showed me that you must let people make their choices and move forward with what they believe. And they will have to live with the consequences of their actions. God is showing me he has someone new for me and that I will go on and be blessed with a happy life.

Temptation was a cautionary tale about the consequences of ones actions. But once we cross that bridge, there is no going back. Today is a crossroads and there is no going back!

Sometimes God has given you his best, but you feel there is something better. And then you think you find it and it destroys you. For me, there is not much more to say. Life is going on and God is going to bless me with a Man of God! Yes, I got that out of a movie. lol

It’s a good movie. I have my little criticisms, but I’m not going to share them. You can go and see for yourself!