I don’t have any children, and have never been pregnant, but I, like most people have been around pregnant women. I remember so well one of my good friend being a little over four months pregnant and miscarried. By that time the baby was formed and so I believe they opted to bury the baby. As you can imagine, it was a traumatic experience.
Later, when she got pregnant again, she had a point where it appeared the same thing was going to happen again. Naturally fear came in and at that point it became a fight of faith. I remember she told me she was in a state of panic about the pregnancy, until God brought her to a place of peace. When she got a Word from God that she would not miscarry again, all the fear left. Yes, a healthy girl was born a she is my god-daughter and that was many years ago.
I realized that I was going through something similar. When “pregnant” with a promise, if you have “miscarried” a promise before, it makes you afraid that the next one won’t come to pass. I was going through that and but the other night God gave me breakthrough.
I was up literally all night, sleepless and worried and then in the early hours I opened an email from a minister with a free mp3 message in it entitled “Ain’t gonna lose it this time”.
Have you ever heard a message that settled the matter? Well that is what that message did for me. Every fear I had lifted and by the end, I was in tears. God sent a rhema letting me know this time I would NOT miscarry the promise.
Yesterday I read some blog posts that hit the nail on the head about fears and faith. One spoke of how what we imagine can color the way we respond and perceive a situation. This is so true. I am guilty as charged. I often get in a tizzy over something and sometimes my perception is off. But that is because I am reflecting on how things were in the past. Another post spoke of remaining in a state of being neutral. I had to include the link because this was such a blessing: Walking the Neutral Line Between Fear and Promise
Anyway, I believe this last confirmation was what I needed. Now, I will stay in the place of peace no matter what happens concerning the circumstance because I know that I “ain’t gonna lose it this time”.
New International Version (NIV)
9 Do I bring to the moment of birth and not give delivery?” says the Lord. “Do I close up the womb when I bring to delivery?” says your God.