Mixed Emotions

Today, my blog is really for me. I hope you get something out of it. I like to write because it can be therapeutic at times. But I know I can’t put everything on a public blog. I do keep a private journal, although since I’ve been blogging, I don’t write in my journal as much.

So much is happening. I guess I’m in the middle of a shift. But my emotions are all over the place. I have mixed feeling about a lot of things. We can believe God for so long and relegate our dreams to the future, but at some point they must come to pass.  Time moves on and we get older and of course you have to see fulfillment. But honestly I’m reminded of something God told me years ago. Sometimes you can be in your season, but the timing is just a little off. I can’t describe it, but for me, that’s what I feel. But we can’t always trust our emotions.

God knows what we need when we need it and He knows why I feel the way that I feel. I’m still recovering from some things. I know that time heals all wounds. Honestly God knows my heart and why I feel the way I do. I have my reasons.

Even a God thing can be bad when it’s out of time. I’m not talking about needing a lot of time either. Something feels slightly off to me, but I also know that I need to spend some concentrated time with God to get ahold to my emotions. In about three days I’ll have some clarity. Have you ever felt that way?