When Will I Get Married?

Much Obliged Red Wrap Maxi Dress

I know this picture of this lady is not one of a person in a wedding dress, but I recently had a dream that I was getting married and at first I saw a white dress and then I saw a red dress that was somewhat similar to the one in the picture above. Well without me going into to details, God recently gave me the time frame in which I will be getting married and it’s not as soon as I would like for it to be. The red dress represented anger and honestly when I realized what God was saying, I got so angry!!! I have been single for a very long time; longer than most people remain single. When you have waited, you can get really resentful when you have to wait even longer.

I don’t have the time to go into why I’ve had to wait so long and do I think it was God’s  perfect will for me to be single this long (I don’t). That would be another blog, which I will definitely write at another time. But it is what it is, but I have to say, the waiting now is for preparation for me and my future husband. I have a very clear plan to reach my goals to be ready for marriage and it’s going to take a whole lot of work. And then the Lord reminded me of something he showed me years ago to help me understand my mates journey. If you don’t believe it, oh well. The Lord showed me that my mate would have to explore every option that he felt he needed to before getting to me. Specifically, he would need to check out all possibilities, attractions and desires BEFORE we came together because if he left just one stone unturned it would crop up AFTER marriage. In other words, he needs to check out everything and everyone that he thinks he wants and then he would be ready for me.

So what about me? Do I get to do the same thing? I’m not sure. Maybe. I will see.  But first things first!! It’s Queen Esther preparation time! I’ve never been naive about what a man wants and how important your physical appearance needs to be and honestly, I am just not ready. But it’s time to get it together.

Esther 2:12-14 New International Version (NIV)

12 Before a young woman’s turn came to go in to King Xerxes, she had to complete twelve months of beauty treatments prescribed for the women, six months with oil of myrrh and six with perfumes and cosmetics. 13 And this is how she would go to the king: Anything she wanted was given her to take with her from the harem to the king’s palace. 14 In the evening she would go there and in the morning return to another part of the harem to the care of Shaashgaz, the king’s eunuch who was in charge of the concubines. She would not return to the king unless he was pleased with her and summoned her by name.

 

 

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Pop Culture

I used to do this regularly, but since I’ve not been blogging regularly, I’ve stopped, but today let’s talk about pop culture.

Facebook is still very popular despite it’s problems with fake news and lack of privacy, but one problem that still is a problem is fake pages. Celebrity fake pages and ministry fake pages. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had someone befriend me who claimed to be a well-known minister and the next thing you know they are asking you for money. I usually string them along and then let them have it! lol Then I report them to Facebook.

Yesterday a friend sent me a link to a fake page for entertainment mogul Tyler Perry. She was all excited because the post said that he was giving out $100.00 to the first hundred that followed his instructions. I don’t even remember what you were required to do, but I told my friend that it was fake and I had received something similar a while back. I think she was a little skeptical of me more than the fake post because she wanted the money. lol She kept saying that she was probably too late to receive the $100.00 and then she proceeded to post it to her Facebook page against my warning. Long story short the next day Tyler Perry posted this and asked people to share it and that’s why I posting this here. Don’t fall the scams!

 

Later, while I was paging through another social media site, I saw a picture of actress Lisa Raye and to my shock and dismay she has recently become engaged to a random stranger on a TV show called the Proposal. It comes on right behind the Bachelor, but I made up my mind that I would not watch it because I felt it made a mockery of marriage. What is the world coming to? That’s just my opinion!

 

 

Prepared

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I meant to blog about this several weeks ago, but now that things have died down, I have decided to blog about this anyway. So what am I talking about? I’m talking about the Royal Wedding!

The whole world watched Prince Harry marry his bi-racial bride in a breathtaking wedding. I thought it was extraordinary! I mean, I heard everyone talking about this wedding. This was a beautiful love story between two unlikely persons and we all got swept away by it. I even heard my 60-year old divorced Pastor say their story made him want to find love again.

But what really got my attention was how prepared Megan Markle (now the Duchess of Sussex) was to walk into her new role. She was prepared, emotionally, physically and even through her life experiences. They say she and Prince Harry bonded over their shared interest in humanitarian work.

This started me to thinking how unprepared I truly am for someone to come into my life. For me the wait for a mate has been so incredibly long that I have really pretty much given up, and kind of let myself go. But I must say Meghan got my attention and made me want to try to prepare once again.

When I thought about writing this blog, I always wanted to share about the Royal Wedding from this point of view. And whether it’s a marriage or a business or whatever God has promised you, you must be prepared. This is my summer of extreme preparation. It’s now or never!! I’ll end with this little letter and song.

Dr. Future Husband,

I don’t know where you are, but I pray that when you come I will be fully prepared and all that you have been waiting for. If God allows us to marry, I promise that I will appreciate the gift of love and marriage and I will appreciate you! God willing, I will see you one day soon my Prince!

The Real Tragedy of Suicide

Anthony_BourdainWhenever I hear about someone ending their own life, I get a sick queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. When a person ends their life, its sad because they did not have to die, but they decided to die.

I understand that people get depressed and I had a friend explain to me that the despair is something that overtakes you and it hard to come back from. I have been depressed, but never that depressed. I have thought I wanted to die, but I’ve never attempted to end my own life. But I am not here to debate or discuss depression. I know it’s a real thing.

The real hurt of suicide is that I know that there was an answer for that person, but they just didn’t know it, or didn’t believe it or receive it, or didn’t want it. The answer is a personal relationship with Jesus. No that is not a pat answer, but a beginning. I knew a young woman who backslid and took her life, so this is not a simple answer.

This past week celebrity chef Anthony Bourdain, ended his own life and the world was shocked. I am familiar with him, because he was occasionally on a cooking competition show that I watch called Top Chef.  Of course everyone was shocked because this man was rich, famous and seemed to have everything that most people strive for. But it’s real simple. None of that is the answer to life.

This is not going to be a long post. Just a plea. If you are someone that feels like they want to end their life, I want you to know GOD is your answer!

Ask God to help you and pray these two prayers:

The Sinner’s Prayer (by Dr. Ray Pritchard)

Lord Jesus, for too long I’ve kept you out of my life. I know that I am a sinner and that I cannot save myself. No longer will I close the door when I hear you knocking. By faith I gratefully receive your gift of salvation. I am ready to trust you as my Lord and Savior. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for coming to earth. I believe you are the Son of God who died on the cross for my sins and rose from the dead on the third day. Thank you for bearing my sins and giving me the gift of eternal life. I believe your words are true. Come into my heart, Lord Jesus, and be my Savior. Amen

Father God,
The darkness has taken hold me and I can’t find my way back to the light. In this moment, ending it all seems like the best option, the only option, the only way to escape. Yet, there is something in me that wants your light to snuff out the darkness. So I ask, Lord, that you would do just that. You are the only light that can shine in the darkness.
I know when I’m consumed with thoughts of death I’m believing lies from the enemy. I ask Lord that you would remind me of these truths: when I feel alone, you are with me; when I feel invisible, you see me; when I feel worthless, my value is knowing you and being known by you.
Lord, help me to understand that you are enough, because you are everything I need and more.
Remind me that when I feel hopeless, you have hope in me and for me. Remind me that when I don’t have the words to cry out to you, your son Jesus is praying for me, and your Spirit intercedes for me with groanings too deep for words. Let this remind me that I am seen, heard and deeply loved.
I often feel out of place in this world. I don’t fit in and I’m not sure I want to. Remind me that this world is not my home and while, as your child, I will never fit in here, my time here isn’t over. Not yet. Please, give me the desire to live.
When I feel like I don’t matter, remind me that I was created with purpose. When I don’t know or understand why I feel the way I feel – remind me that you know the depth of pain in my heart, in my body and in my being. You know me better than I know myself… and yet you still love me.
When I feel like my death would go unnoticed because my life seems to go by uncelebrated,
remind me that you celebrate me and that you hurt for me when I’m in this dark place.
Remind me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and I am worth more than I know.
Remind me that this life is not mine to take.
Remind me that suicide is not the only option.
Remind me to love you and to love myself.
As I say these words I know in my heart that you love me and I feel incredible guilt for wanting to take the life you gave me. I feel embarrassed to admit these thoughts to you. I feel overwhelmed that you know these thoughts without my even saying them, and yet you still love me.
Remind me that Jesus did not come to earth and die for me so that I could live a defeated life. Help me to desire life and to live fully in you.
In Jesus precious name, Amen.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

1-800-273-8255

It’s My Time/And Yours Too!

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Have any promises of God that you are waiting on? Tired of waiting? Hardly believing anymore? Well I want to encourage and tell you that it’s your time.

I’m starting to a see a glimpse of light at the end of a very long tunnel. Some of you have been blessed to have seen many breakthroughs. I am happy for you! But there are those of us who have waited and waited and waited some more and I tell you it’s not fun.

Lately, I am seeing a little bit of a breakthrough in the area of work. For me the struggle has been real and as I look back I realize that some people are 9-5 people and others are not and you have to find your niche. I have never been a 9-5 office type person. I realized recently that I wanted to be like my mom. I wanted to get married, have 6 kids (yes 6) and be a stay at home mom. But it never happened and I didn’t really have a back up plan. But don’t feel sorry for me. The one thing I am proud of is that I answered the call of God on my life and put other things secondary. But now I am seeing a change.

So my biggest breakthrough has been being able to work from home. Some people need the office politics and banter and so on and so forth, but I have always wanted to work from home and last year, my brother started paying me to do research for his business right from my home!! I am so happy. And right now I am training for another position at another company doing social media research, right from home. Honestly, I am living my dream right now. No travel, no care fare, no office drama. Not for everyone, but it’s for me. And there is more to come!!

I realize that things are really beginning to change and it’s all about coming into your Kairos moment. That is that opportune time when God is manifesting what you want. It’s your set time. Your appointed time.

It’s been a long time coming and I’ve often wondered if I missed God and maybe I have missed some opportunities, but I just know “It’s my time!” And it’s yours too! Don’t give up!!

Stay tuned! There is more to come!

Psalm 102:13 New International Version (NIV)

13 You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
for it is time to show favor to her;
the appointed time has come.