Vision?

IMG_8005In the past, I have shared on this blog, a vision about a mate, that I believed God gave me, It was a very long journey that recently ended, when this man made his choice and said that he knew who God has sent him as his wife and it wasn’t me. Case closed. The end.

I am a woman with tenacious faith, but where it comes to a man selecting a wife, that is where my faith ends. Yes, I could keep proclaiming what I feel God is saying because I feel the scenario fits, but I think it would be futile. After all we are dealing with the will of a man. God never forces anything on us and especially in the area of marriage. No man or woman is going to marry someone by force. Men and women marry because they feel that they love each other and want to spend the rest of their lives together. Me holding on, is not wise. I don’t believe for a minute that God is requiring that or me and so, I have and am moving on as best as I can. This couple feel God has divinely placed them together, so who am I to argue?

It’s days like today that have the ability to throw me back into that mode of believing, but trust me that is NOT what I want to do and it’s not what I have wanted to do in a long time. A woman deserves to be loved and cherished and not rejected and pushed away and I have been rejected and pushed away, which is fine. I truly believe God has someone else for me.

So this morning I woke up after having 3 dreams. That last one was about my best friend but the first one was about the vision man. In that dream I was sitting in what looked to be a community center, with round tables like that was a banquet. I was aware that the woman this man says he is in love with was there. I could see her out of the corner or my eye, although we did not greet one another.

The vision man came in and he looked over towards the one he loved. They had not met each other yet, so he looked from afar and then walked away and then came back. Meanwhile, I was sitting talking to Britney Spears. Mid-conversation, she jumped up and ran out of the venue to throw up. I immediately thought she was pregnant. Earlier, Brittany came in and was talking to the vision man. They conversed as though they knew each other.

Well the vision man started talking to the woman who he is in love with from a distance, but he came and stood right next to me. I also heard him say something to her about her shoes, but by then he was acting as though they were already married even though they weren’t.

Well I woke up from the dream only to “hear” a bunch of stuff proclaiming that the vision man  has made his choice and was already happily married etc, etc. When I first woke up, I didn’t understand the dream because I have ALREADY accepted the inevitable about him marrying someone else, so why would God be showing me what I already believe is going to happen? Well I believe God was preparing me for what I was about to hear/see.

The next part of the dream was baffling to me. I saw some white wolves and they were climbing up the side of the building that I grew up in. I was in one of the rooms that was once my room. Upstairs the wolves were literally scaling the walls. trying to get into the upstairs apartment. In the dream my family and I hid ourselves from the wolves.

I began to pray and ask God about this dream he led me to look up wolf and the definition said that a white wolf represents victory and valor. Well low and behold the wolves were trying to get in the upstairs neighbors house and in the dream I remember telling someone the JACKSON family used to live upstairs. When I woke up and started thinking I remembered my Michael Jackson dream. In the dream the female party of this couple was coming to meet the vision man and he turned into Michael Jackson. I always felt it meant they would not meet.

Now this is not witchcraft or  voodoo (I have been accused of that). This is just dreams that God gave me.

Is God telling me there is still hope? Is the Lord telling me I have the victory and I need to be brave in this battle? Is God reminding me what he showed me in the Michael Jackson dream. Can’t say I am sure. I thought this was over. But is it really over?

In the dream when the vision man stood right next to me, I thought he did it on purpose to taunt me. When I looked up the word standing, it meant to take a stand. When I heard/saw what I did in the natural, part of me felt it was to throw out at me or it was especially to get my attention, but I don’t know. It’s still very odd to me that this has all played out publicly in cyberspace. People do things for a reason.

Even if something catastrophic took place between these two (not wishing it on them) there is one problem that I have, and that is me. My wounds are so deep I don’t think I could accept this. But that is probably NOT what God is saying, so I will be just fine.

Whatever happens, I will be happy for them. I only want God’s perfect will! From the outside, it looks like the perfect love story, but I know the behind the scenes and it’s not. But if they have found true love that holds up outside of cyberspace, God bless them. My life will go on and I will be JUST FINE! And God will have someone better!

Isaiah 46:10 New International Version (NIV)

10 I make known the end from the beginning,
    from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
    and I will do all that I please.’

Standing Firm

Originally posted on jisbell22:

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Can you stand firm

For what you believe

Or when the pressure is on

Your beliefs do you leave?

Can you stand toe to toe

With those whom ridicule

Or will you abandon your faith

So that you look real cool?

Do you speak up

For others harrassed

or do you look away

while you simply walk past?

Can you speak soflty

with those who dissent?

Or do you return the hatred

and vile that often is sent?

For one who is firm

in the beliefs of their heart

is never threatened

by those who aren’t

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When Vision Dies

shattered dreamsThis is probably the hardest post I have had to write. It’s hard because I don’t yet understand all that I have gone through.

I’ve share so much about vision on this blog and everything God shared with me has happened. That is what makes it so difficult to understand. I could see if nothing that God showed me had happened, but it’s quite the opposite. EVERYTHING the Lord has showed me, has happened, even down to the current circumstance.

I believed God had showed me a specific man as a mate. The Lord opened a door of communication, the Lord told me he would connect me with someone who would give me insight on that mans life, God showed me, he would get tangled up with a friend of mine and that has happened. Yet I feel strongly that this is the end. So what do I do with all God showed me?

The vision started with God saying to me, he will come VERY CLOSE to marrying someone, but in the end, he and I would end up together. But right now that is not in the realm of possibility. He has made it quite clear that he has found the one he loves the one perfectly suited for him.

In the past, I have felt to ignore all that I saw and heard and still believe, but I no longer feel that way anymore. I believe I should embrace and accept all that they (the couple) are saying and wish them the best.

Here is my dilemina. What do I do with all that was shown to me in dreams and visions and manifestations? I can’t imaging being able to embrace anything that God says to me from now on.

I have been accused of working witchcraft and voodoo. I guess that is the only way for them to explain this. But I heard everything I shared ahead of time, But it’s not going to happen, so I must find a way to make peace with this situation and move on.

I don’t have a problem admitting if I am wrong. The problem is that from what I heard, I was not wrong.

So what was all of that? Was it deception? Well how could it be. I did not ask for this, nor set my sights on this. Perhaps something happened and something changed and God decided this is no longer good for me.  Well, I just have to live with it.

At this point even though the circumstances still seems to fit, I feel it would not be good to hold on. God knows and knew something about this that I don’t. My only question is why did God reveal it in the first place?

I wish I could tie this up in a neat bow and say that it was  never God. Maybe it wasn’t. Again, I am left with what I saw and heard and what manifested. But more has manifested for someone else, so I must let go forever. It’s heart wrenching!

P.S. And to the gentlemen who was the object of this vision, I sincerely apologize for anything I have done. Please know I only shared what I saw. I wish you only the best and am and will continue to be happy for you! God bless!

Perception’s Deception

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1 Samuel 16:7

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Don’t be impressed by his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. God does not view things the way men do. People look on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

When Samuel was choosing the future King, he was led by God.  Men tried to sway him to pick according to their own prejudice and preference, but Samuel sought God’s favor.  People were shocked that David, a mere shepherd boy who played the harp was selected.  He was the youngest, the least that anyone would have expected.  It was, perhaps, politically incorrect.

The people qualified Samuel’s choice: “but he’s taking care of the flock . . .” – not someone God would choose, would He? David might not have been esteemed as a leader in man’s eyes, but to God, who knew…

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Celebrity Dreams Pt. 2

tyler-perry-oprah-cover_240x340_55Yesterday I shared my celebrity dreams and I neglected to share one of the major ones. I can’t remember whether I shared it on this blog earlier, but the dream was about Miss Oprah Winfrey and Mr. Tyler Perry. At the time of the dream, they had not yet collaborated and become business partners.

In the dream I saw what appeared to be a construction site. There was lots of rock and hills of what appeared to be debris. To me, it appeared that things were falling down. I looked and saw a sign that said: OWN (Oprah Winfrey Network) and I saw Mr. Perry standing in the middle of the debris.

When I look back at the dream, It could have represented the trouble for Miss Winfrey and it’s my understanding now, that the joining of the two helped build her network up. Mr. Perry now has 4 successful, high-rated television shows on Oprah’s network. But I am not certain, because there was another part of the dream and it seems connected.

In the other part of the dream, I saw what appeared to be a conference table with baseball jackets on the back of each chair. When I looked at the back of the jacket’s they had a name on them. They all (about 8 of them) had the same female name and I recognized the name and the person.

In dreams baseball has a sexual connotation  to it. Is it possible, that this situation with the woman whose name I saw on the conference chairs, will bring about the demise or ending of this collaboration between Oprah and Tyler? I am inclined to believe the later because the conference table with the name was in the midst of the debris. Will this woman cause the ending this merge? Stay tuned. Time will tell!

Daniel 4:5New International Version (NIV)

I had a dream that made me afraid. As I was lying in bed, the images and visions that passed through my mind terrified me.

 

Celebrity Dreams

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Kim Kardashian and Kris Humphries

I don’t know why God gives me dreams about celebrities. Perhaps to pray for them. I remember before Kim Kardashian got married (the short-lived marriage) I dreamed about her and Sherri Shepherd (formerly of The View). In the dream I saw two weddings and it was clear from the dream that God was showing me these relationships would not last. Kim K’s marriage was over in 72 days. Sherri’s lastest a few years, but sadly her marriage ended as well.

Sherri Shepherd, Lamar Sally

 

Before Bill Cosby’s big scandal the Lord showed me in a dream that he would go through a scandal. In the room with Bill was Chris Brown who also went through a scandal as well.

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Bill Cosby

 

Recently, I had a dream about Tyler Perry. In the dream I walked up to Arsenio Hall and we “fist bumped” as though we knew each other. I landed somewhere backstage at a production and one of the actors from Tyler Perry’s plays Ms. Cassie Davis, came to me and handed me a cell-phone and gave me this look like, “you know who is on this phone”. I took the phone and Tyler began to talk. He was quite nervous and so was I and the dream ended.

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Tyler Perry

 

I also recently had a dream about Nick Cannon and Mariah Carey. In the dream they were not back together, but they were having a baby together. Nick seemed quite smitten with Mariah, but she seemed non-nonchalant and not very interested. I just had this dream last week and today I read an article that said, Nick is open to reconciliation, but Mariah, not so much. Amazing.

I know when I have these dreams, God is trying to show me something. Why I dream about celebrities, I don’t know, but I am learning to pray for them too. They need pray just like you and I. I may not get the interpretation of the dreams at the moment, but later on it usually manifests.

Mariah Carey, Nick Cannon

Mariah Carey, Nick Cannon