RIP Christina Newman

We live in an amazing age. We can now connect with anyone in the world with this device called the computer. We can also form very real connections with people, real or imagined.

I remember a few years back, I found the YouTube channel of a beautiful young wife and mother named Christina Newman. What attracted me to her channel was her passion for eating raw. At the time I was contemplating going raw and was looking at any and everything that has to do with the raw food diet. Christina was a beautiful bubbly young lady who was struggling with her weight and was gaining the victory day by day and I could identify with that struggle.

After a year or two of watching her and following her and following her blog, I was sad to find out that this young mother had an aggressive form of cancer. As a Christian, I immediately began to go into prayer mode and would keep up with her from time to time. Well recently, I thought about her and to my dismay, a quick search online brought up the information about her going into hospice and dying leaving behind a husband, older daughter and very young daughter.

I did not know Christina, but as I said, being online can make you feel very connected to people you have never met. I was devastated and hurt as though she was a member of my own family.

I am so sorry for the loss of this family. A beautiful soul! Rest in Peace Christina Newman and God bless your surviving family!

Love Series: In the Meantime

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I’m not blogging like I used to. I just don’t have the desire anymore. But every once in a while, I feel compelled to write. This is one of those times. I’m not even sure anyone is reading. But writing has always been cathartic for me and writing things down is a good way to remember, when circumstances come to make us forget.

I’ve shared some of my God-given visions on here and I promised myself I would stop sharing, especially the vision I was shown about a mate. At this point I think it does more damage than good. So it’s pretty much on the shelf. But I am just rehearsing a little bit of it because it plays into what I am going to be doing in the meantime.

I’ve shared how God showed me something about a specific man and told me before he and I got together this man would come close to marrying the wrong person. I don’t know what will stop that from happening. and really it’s not my business. But this has been painful for me, not in the sense of me being jealous, but more because I have watched it play out and it is not easy seeing something God told you go left. Okay enough about that.

So a couple of years back, I believe the Lord told me that he would send someone my way “in the meantime”. This would be a man who I would date, even though, we would not marry. I know this may sound strange, But I am a seer and God often shows me things well in advance. It can be both good and bad. But it is what it is. That is why this blog is called a prophetic walk. I know there are those who are like me. Gifted and misunderstood and persecuted because of it.

So at the time I felt I was going to be dating, there was a Pastor in my church who showed some interest in me and just when I started to notice, he went on a sabbatical from the church, to fast and pray and after that he was gone! What a disappointment. I really thought he was that one. He started his own church and due to logistics, I was never able to get there. But later, God showed me that was not the “in the meantime man”.

At the time God revealed this to me, it became clear to me that God was kind and just and he was not going to allow me to sit on the sidelines waiting for something and me not be able to enjoy life.

Recently, I’ve had an awakening of sorts. There is this man who just caught my attention in a very odd way. He is not anyone who I know, he is totally someone, who is not in the realm of possibility for me to date, yet and still I find myself thinking about him and curious about him. Then I had a dream about him and honestly, I don’t have a clue what it all means. But God does deal with me heavily in dreams.

What I do know that whether it’s him or not (I doubt it) God is awakening me to this season that he told me about a long time ago. Someone is coming into my life and he is coming to restore what this vision broke in me. And I am excited about it!

Thoughtful Thursday: When Dreams Are Shattered

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Job 17:11

“My days have passed, my plans are shattered, even the desires of my heart.”

Proverbs 13:13

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is like a tree of life.”

Joel 2:25

“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten.” 

Psalm 27:13-14

13 “I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. 14 Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.”

Perhaps nothing stings more than the reality of a hope that is dashed or a dream that is unfulfilled.  You were so close to your goal, and then suddenly it is gone.  Or the plans you had for your life have seriously been altered, completely shattered because of circumstances beyond your control.

Why is it so disheartening?…

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The Painful Breaking of a Man

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Time to repeat this message.

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How is everyone?! It’s seems like forever since I have written on this blog and then God gives me a difficult Word right before Christmas, but I am going to obey the Lord because it may be just what someone needs in the days ahead.

I was thinking about a member of my family and how God showed me that his path has been very rough because he has not submitted many areas of his life to God. Yes, this person is saved and even in the ministry, but he was still doing his own thing and has been in a state of rebellion for a while.

Now I know some of you may be thinking, who died and made you God? Well, nobody. But if you’ve read my blog in the past, you know I am a seer and God shows me things even when I don’t want to…

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Worshipful Wednesday: The Blame Shame Game

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Genesis 16:3-6, 13

16:3So afterAbramhad lived in Canaanfor tenyears, Sarai, Abram’swife, gaveHagar, her Egyptianservant, to her husbandto behiswife. 4He had sexual relationswithHagar,and she became pregnant.  Once Hagar realizedshe was pregnant, she despisedSarai5Then SaraisaidtoAbram, “You have brought this wrongonme!  Iallowedmy servantto havesexual relationswith you, but when she realized thatshe was pregnant, she despisedme.  May the Lordjudgebetweenyou and me! 6AbramsaidtoSarai, “Sinceyour servantis under your authoritydoto her whateveryou thinkbest.” Then Saraitreated Hagar harshly, so she ran away fromSarai. 13SoHagar namedthe Lord

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The Guarded Heart

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Excellent post!

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Proverbs 4:23

Keep your heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.

Our heart – an organ that pumps out blood and sustains our lives, yet we ascribe to the heart the ability to feel or to choose righteousness.  The word, “libbecha” (Hebrew for heart) in the Scripture above is translated as pertaining to that “inner man, mind, will or heart” (Strong’s).  Our soul cannot be found on any anatomical chart, though it is evident in our mind. Much like the phrase, “the very heart of a matter”, refers to the main point of something, so the very heart of a person is the inner core of that individual.  What defines the person is based on their actions or decisions which are in accordance with their convictions.

So what does it mean to guard our heart?  Ironically, guarding our heart, which is the…

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