Happy Resurrection Sunday! For some this day is called Easter Sunday and that is okay. I just prefer to call it Resurrection Day, because we are celebrating the day that Jesus rose from the dead. Jesus was crucified and buried and all hope was lost, but he rose up on the third day and what a day of victory it was.
There are times when the things that we believe God has showed us, end up dying. I am having that experience while we speak. Something that God showed me is very much dead. Honestly, I am no longer sure if it was ever alive. I am on a roller coaster right now. What do you do with a dead vision? Will there be a resurrection?
In the past, I’ve been very detailed about some things on here, but I am not going to take that route anymore. I’m just going to say that God showed me something in my future and gave me a lot of details. With time, I received more and more information. Yes, a lot of detail about this vision was given to me. I think it’s kind of an unusual occurrence, but because of all that has transpired, I can see why I would need so much detail ahead of time. If I didn’t have it, I would not be able to believe. And yet, I still have my doubts, not in what God said because I know God can do it. My doubts have more to do with this being a blessing. In my mind, even if there was some miraculous transformation today, I just can’t see this as a blessing.
I am talking about the circumstance. To me, this is in the grave and it stinks to high heaven. Nothing personal, but I deserve for my love story to come together is a better way and nothing can change the bitter taste this circumstance has left in my mouth.
But I am sure that is how the disciples felt. Jesus was gone. The vision they saw for themselves walking with him was gone. But even after all of that, they experienced a glorious resurrection.
I no longer have a desire for resurrection. It will take an act of God to make all things new and take away the cloud that is over this vision. And yet, God showed all of it to me. I think there is only one thing that could change my perspective and I am hoping it happens. I believe a man coming into my life to restore all that was taken is the only way this can be repaired. I still have the desire to have an “in the meantime man”. If you have read my other blogs, you will understand this. And if not, oh well, I’ve made it private. But an “in the meantime man” is one who comes to restore, before God’s choice comes along. I am not 100% sure it’s going to happen, but I know my desire for it to happen is 100%. That’s all I can see right now.
Will there be a resurrection? Maybe so, but only after a restoration!
Joel 2:25 (KJV)
25 And I will restore to you the years that the locust hath eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpiller, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.