The Journey Continues

i am moving wsahington dcIt’s been well over a year that I have officially been in a live in situation, but now that journey has come to an end. I have to move by the end of the month and guess what? I don’t have a clue where I am going. Well let me rephrase that. I do have an idea, but just not sure yet how I will get there, but I have an idea. lol Does that make sense?

I know, it’s a little crazy. I know some folks may view this as a haphazard way of living and I have my questions about it, especially at my age, but I know that God brought me to this place where I am living, with this particular elderly woman to help her toward the “winter” of her life. And that is exactly what God told me. But often people don’t appreciate what they have until it’s gone.

One thing I am sure of, is that it’s definitely time to go. I can’t wait to move even though it’s a faith walk. Faith is my strong area. Especially in situations like this. I wish I could plan like most, but for now, I am walking by faith. I will keep you posted.

2 Corinthians 5:7 New King James Version (NKJV)

For we walk by faith, not by sight.

 

The Future is Not Fixed!

Years ago I was a part of a ministry where the Pastor used to always say “Destiny is not left of to chance, it’s a matter of choice. The longer I live, the more I understand the truth of this statement. Yes, I believe God’s final worldwide plan will be done, but in our own personal lives, I know that it’s the decisions that we make that are going to decide where we will end up. I cringe when I hear Christians say “if it’s meant to be, it will happen”. Sorry but if that is your belief system, we will have to agree to disagree. I have watched too many  things fall to the ground and die, which I know was in the plan and purpose of God. When people where telling me, it didn’t happen because it was not meant to be, God was showing me that I missed it. I have watched too many Christians backslide because what they were promised never happened and what they didn’t realize is, they had the wrong mentality. They sat on the sidelines thinking God was going to do it all, when there was something they needed to do. That is why I have learned to be proactive when God gives me instructions. That is why I am back on this blog. God showed me it plays a part in my destiny. Let me tell you what happened to get my attention and bring me back:

Several hours ago, I went to see The Terminator Genisys. As I headed to the theater the Lord told me there would be a  message in the movie and I almost missed it. Sorry for you super deep Christians, but God speaks to me through movies often. I almost missed the message and saw Ant Man, lol. I was standing at the box office and changed my mind again and am I glad I did. I thoroughly enjoyed the movie with all of it’s twists and turns. Without spoiling it, the movie is very much about the twist and turns towards destiny and when the movie was over, the last words spoken were “the future is not fixed!” Well that got my attention. God knows how to do that. I knew instantly that the Lord was letting me know that my destiny was at stake and something was happening that would try to challenge it. I also instinctively knew that I needed to get back to writing, at least today. God knows that I have lived through missing enough, that I refuse to not get what He intends for me to have.

Perhaps this one blog post can stop the plan of the enemy against me. Perhaps it will help someone else to not make a wrong decision, or move in the wrong direction toward the wrong thing or person. God knows what we need. He is looking for obedience to what he has already revealed.

Abraham and Sarah became impatient about God’s plan and Sarah gave her handmaid Hagar to Abraham, to have a child with, since she was past the childbearing years. This may seem innocent and since God is the giver of life, we may think this was God’s plan. I know it’s hard to look in the face of a beautiful child and say “you don’t belong here”. Yes, Ishmael was born outside of the promise of God. Isaac was the promised child. And the result is the descendants of Ishmael and Isaac are still fighting to this day! This is due to disobedience

Yes, we can create circumstances and relationships and even children, who were not in God’s perfect plan! Why? Because God has given us the free will to do so. But beware! When you do that. you will have to live with the consequences of your actions and that can end up haunting you for the rest of your life! So don’t disobey and create your own hell! Fix your future by cooperating with God!

 

The Case of Bill Cosby

 

Bill Cosby, Speech Criminal

It’s all over the news. Formerly, Americas Dad, one of the greatest roles models for Black America, exposed as a fraud! The African-American community was not only upset, but the majority were in denial. It had to be a conspiracy against this powerful Black man. But I knew differently.

Several years ago, before all of Mr. Cosby’s dirty deeds were exposed, God showed me Bill Cosby in a dream. He was in a room with a few other celebrities, which included Chris Brown, who was also being exposed at the time for beating up his then girlfriend Rihanna. I remember waking up from the dream wondering why on earth I had dreamed about Bill Cosby. But with time, it was revealed.

My blog is called “a prophetic walk” for a reason. This calling can be very interesting! And each prophetic person will learn how God deals with them, personally. I know I am a seer. God often shows me things YEARS before it happens. It’s no fun because I am often labeled as false because what I see takes so long to manifest. But it doesn’t matter. It still happens. To date, the longest I have waited to see something God showed me happen has been about 22 years!!! Yes, that long. But in the case of Mr. Cosby, I came to realize, God was showing me, like Chris Brown, some dirt would soon come out on him as well. And I had this dream in 2009!

I have never felt Bill was being railroaded or that there was a conspiracy. From what I heard, it’s a known fact among some in Hollywood that he is a predator. The public just didn’t know it.

So now that Cosby’s die-hard defenders (Whoopi Goldberg and Jill Scott) have deserted him, what will be his end? Well one thing that is important when anyone is exposed is to admit it and apologize and make amends. But few men have that kind of character, especially in the face of millions of people.

It saddens me that this will be his legacy. All he has done means nothing now. Just like OJ Simpson. But that is why we cannot put people who we don’t really know on a pedestal. The arm of flesh will always fail you! But God won’t. I pray that Bill Cosby will repent and come to know Jesus, because that is his only hope. And I dare say, his drugging and philandering days are over.

So what can we draw from this story? One thing is be who you say you are. But also, be sure your sins will find you out!

Numbers 32:23New King James Version (NKJV)

23 But if you do not do so, then take note, you have sinned against the Lord; and be sure your sin will find you out.

The Masquerade

FANTASY CARNIVAL MASKS -- 36 Designs Machine Embroidery Design Pack (AzEB)I felt the urge to write a blog post today after coming through a very strange few weeks. I also noticed that my last post was May 5th. Something about vision. Honestly I didn’t bother to read it. I am so in a different place right now.

All things are new for me. Whatever God has, I pray it will come to pass and whoever that includes (I no longer know) it will be fine because I know God knows who or what is best for me. I know that if I marry it will be to someone who has answered the ministerial call on his life. I wouldn’t have anything in common with anyone else. More than likely He will be gifted in the prophetic because that would be the kind of man who would understand me. Meanwhile, I am footloose and fancy free! But enough about that.

I had a very odd experience recently. A “woman” befriended me on Twitter and she seemed quite insistent that we chat on a regular basis. I was not so much for it, because a lot of the people I have interacted with online, have not been who they said they were. So anyway this “women” would private message me regularly. At a certain point, I felt I did not want the “relationship” to go on any further because I felt she was a man masquerading as a woman, and I felt I knew who that person was.

But again, here “she” comes insisting that we stay in touch. Well I was drawn in, but all along with these nagging doubts as to who this “woman” really was. Then, a few weeks ago, I went to a church with a friend and her Pastor called me out and gave me a prophetic word which makes even more sense now, then it did when I received it. But he was specific about a “lying relationship” in my life. Since this was the only new relationship and there were other things said that fit, I pretty much knew this person was not who they were saying they were.

Yes, “she” showed me pictures of her daughter and I saw the Facebook page, but anyone who has seen the television show Catfish on MTV knows that means absolutely nothing. People create fake lives online all the time.

So what happened? Well it started when my phone was cut off for a few days. This was God’s way in breaking the “connection” I believe. I was unable to chat with this person daily. I never really felt a genuine connection with the person, but how could I, when they were fake? I was just constantly plagued with doubts about them. Well yesterday, this “relationship” ended. It happened because for a minute, I forgot who I thought I was talking to and apparently what I said ticked him off. He hurled some insults and I decided, I will not subject myself to the masquerade/facade anymore.

Thank God for my prophetic walk and His true Prophets. I chuckle when I see people who think they can fool prophetic people. I see liars all around me and they don’t even know they have already been exposed by the prophetic. I for one, thank God I answered this call. Yes, it’s a crazy, peculiar walk, but I wouldn’t have it any other way!

Amos 3:7 New International Version (NIV)

Surely the Sovereign Lord does nothing
    without revealing his plan
    to his servants the prophets.

Vision?

IMG_8005In the past, I have shared on this blog, a vision about a mate, that I believed God gave me, It was a very long journey that recently ended, when this man made his choice and said that he knew who God has sent him as his wife and it wasn’t me. Case closed. The end.

I am a woman with tenacious faith, but where it comes to a man selecting a wife, that is where my faith ends. Yes, I could keep proclaiming what I feel God is saying because I feel the scenario fits, but I think it would be futile. After all we are dealing with the will of a man. God never forces anything on us and especially in the area of marriage. No man or woman is going to marry someone by force. Men and women marry because they feel that they love each other and want to spend the rest of their lives together. Me holding on, is not wise. I don’t believe for a minute that God is requiring that or me and so, I have and am moving on as best as I can. This couple feel God has divinely placed them together, so who am I to argue?

It’s days like today that have the ability to throw me back into that mode of believing, but trust me that is NOT what I want to do and it’s not what I have wanted to do in a long time. A woman deserves to be loved and cherished and not rejected and pushed away and I have been rejected and pushed away, which is fine. I truly believe God has someone else for me.

So this morning I woke up after having 3 dreams. That last one was about my best friend but the first one was about the vision man. In that dream I was sitting in what looked to be a community center, with round tables like that was a banquet. I was aware that the woman this man says he is in love with was there. I could see her out of the corner or my eye, although we did not greet one another.

The vision man came in and he looked over towards the one he loved. They had not met each other yet, so he looked from afar and then walked away and then came back. Meanwhile, I was sitting talking to Britney Spears. Mid-conversation, she jumped up and ran out of the venue to throw up. I immediately thought she was pregnant. Earlier, Brittany came in and was talking to the vision man. They conversed as though they knew each other.

Well the vision man started talking to the woman who he is in love with from a distance, but he came and stood right next to me. I also heard him say something to her about her shoes, but by then he was acting as though they were already married even though they weren’t.

Well I woke up from the dream only to “hear” a bunch of stuff proclaiming that the vision man  has made his choice and was already happily married etc, etc. When I first woke up, I didn’t understand the dream because I have ALREADY accepted the inevitable about him marrying someone else, so why would God be showing me what I already believe is going to happen? Well I believe God was preparing me for what I was about to hear/see.

The next part of the dream was baffling to me. I saw some white wolves and they were climbing up the side of the building that I grew up in. I was in one of the rooms that was once my room. Upstairs the wolves were literally scaling the walls. trying to get into the upstairs apartment. In the dream my family and I hid ourselves from the wolves.

I began to pray and ask God about this dream he led me to look up wolf and the definition said that a white wolf represents victory and valor. Well low and behold the wolves were trying to get in the upstairs neighbors house and in the dream I remember telling someone the JACKSON family used to live upstairs. When I woke up and started thinking I remembered my Michael Jackson dream. In the dream the female party of this couple was coming to meet the vision man and he turned into Michael Jackson. I always felt it meant they would not meet.

Now this is not witchcraft or  voodoo (I have been accused of that). This is just dreams that God gave me.

Is God telling me there is still hope? Is the Lord telling me I have the victory and I need to be brave in this battle? Is God reminding me what he showed me in the Michael Jackson dream. Can’t say I am sure. I thought this was over. But is it really over?

In the dream when the vision man stood right next to me, I thought he did it on purpose to taunt me. When I looked up the word standing, it meant to take a stand. When I heard/saw what I did in the natural, part of me felt it was to throw out at me or it was especially to get my attention, but I don’t know. It’s still very odd to me that this has all played out publicly in cyberspace. People do things for a reason.

Even if something catastrophic took place between these two (not wishing it on them) there is one problem that I have, and that is me. My wounds are so deep I don’t think I could accept this. But that is probably NOT what God is saying, so I will be just fine.

Whatever happens, I will be happy for them. I only want God’s perfect will! From the outside, it looks like the perfect love story, but I know the behind the scenes and it’s not. But if they have found true love that holds up outside of cyberspace, God bless them. My life will go on and I will be JUST FINE! And God will have someone better!

Isaiah 46:10 New International Version (NIV)

10 I make known the end from the beginning,
    from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
    and I will do all that I please.’

Standing Firm

Originally posted on jisbell22:

lighthouse

Can you stand firm

For what you believe

Or when the pressure is on

Your beliefs do you leave?

Can you stand toe to toe

With those whom ridicule

Or will you abandon your faith

So that you look real cool?

Do you speak up

For others harrassed

or do you look away

while you simply walk past?

Can you speak soflty

with those who dissent?

Or do you return the hatred

and vile that often is sent?

For one who is firm

in the beliefs of their heart

is never threatened

by those who aren’t

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