Here We Go!

I’m about to drop a bombshell and let the chips fall where they may. Honestly, I know the only thing that is going to get me through the days ahead is prayer and fasting. The last time I fasted God showed me he had indeed spoken to someone about something that I was wondering about and before the day ended, God showed me the truth. But everyday it’s something different. But I can’t allow that to affect me and my faith.

My prayer partner had a dream a while back and in the dream she saw God’s intended mate for me and she named him. In the dream, he decided to keep someone else around and in the dream I was unaffected. I thought I was there, but it seems I’m not. I have to get on the other side of this! Just know, all that I share is in love.

So years back God gave me a vision about a mate. Yes, I know you are tired of hearing about it, and honestly, I am tired of talking about it. But I am going to clarify some stuff and I’m sure it will get me in trouble. Because he lives in another state, it was suggested (by him) in a subtle way that I needed to move in order for this thing to happen and for a while I believed that I did need to move and felt the pressure to do it because of this man.

Unfortunately, I promised and promised that I was moving and every time I seriously decided to move, a situation would crop up concerning another woman and it was a stop sign for me. Well now that thing is full blown and all I can say is it was God who stopped me from moving, no doubt. Had I gone, this same situation would have came up and where would I be? I would be sitting in another state looking stupid. And some other stuff has happened as well. I don’t think for a minute that that my moving would have had any baring on the current state of circumstance. In other words, it all would have happened anyway!

So here I am promising and promising and finally I fasted and God told me (through a sermon) where I was is the place I am to be for now and that I did not have to run to that other city (the city was named). Then God told me to STOP promising that person I was going to move because every time I said it and didn’t do it, it would disappoint that person.

So where does that leave the vision now and how will it happen? I think I have an idea, but I’m gonna keep my mouth shut. But I do know that God is not requiring me to relocate my life especially now where the circumstance is crazy! Let’s be honest. Why would God require me to move for a man who says he is in love with someone else? And then there is some other stuff too? Think about it!

God is especially protective over his handmaids. He does not want us mistreated nor is He putting undo pressure on us to do things that are simply not required. Trust me, if God wants you to meet someone, he can have you both end up in the same place at the same time. But I believe who God has for me, will come looking of his own free will.

Well, I said it. Let the chips fall where they may! All I know to do now is fast and prayer.

Numbers 23:19 New International Version (NIV)

19 God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?

 

False Dreams and Revelations

I have not arrived, but I am definitely not a novice concerning the things of God. And yet, God is still showing me how easy it is to be deceived. Let me give you one secret in how to not be deceived. Here it is: DON’T REJECT WHAT GOD HAS SAID.

The quickest way to be deceived is when we don’t want to accept what God has ALREADY REVEALED. Each time we reject God’s will, it opens us to more and more deception. Let me share my own story.

In 2011 the Lord showed me the death of my father. It was confirmed, and it was about to happen. My mother’s death was so traumatic for me, that I asked God to please warn me before any other deaths and God did. I knew my father was going to die. Over the summer of 2011, we found out he had cancer metastasized on the liver and that pretty much sealed that he would not live that much longer. He was an old man and it was his time to go.

Well here comes the lady who I now live with saying that she had a dream that he was healed. She kept saying it so much that it started to influenced me. The only problem was she had misinterpreted her dreams. Then here is the clincher. Once I started believing her, I seemed like I started getting what seemed like confirmations that God was going to heal him. I remember watching a minister talk about an 80-year old woman being healed of cancer. Yes! Surely this was a confirmation that God was going to heal my Dad too! Well it was not because God has already spoken.

Whenever you continue to entertain what others are saying when it’s contrary to what God already told you, you are going to end up with a FALSE REVELATION.

I took it so far as to sharing with my whole family about the healing. I wouldn’t even allow the hospice nurse to give him too much pain medicine thinking that I didn’t want it to affect his healing (yes, I did). Finally my sister, who is a hospice nurse stepped in and told them to make our Dad comfortable and that is what they did and shortly after that he died.

Now I was not embarrassed for sharing about healing with family. I was annoyed that I let someone else influence my thinking against what God had already said. But guess what? It was a lesson that I needed to learn and boy did I learn it. And I see why. Right now I am dealing with something that seems like it’s impossible. But I heard God and I’m not budging!

I later learned that the lady that I live with had dreams about people when they die! She didn’t even understand her own gift and here I was listening to her. But again, I learned from that.

Listen, don’t keep rejecting what God already told you. That in itself is going to bring a lot of heartache. But I suspect, some of you are just like me. You are going to have to learn this lesson on your own.

Numbers 23:19 New International Version (NIV)

19 God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?

 

Flirty Fishing

Flirty fishing was a form of religious prostitution practiced from 1974-1987 by the Children of God (a cult), in the US. and around the world. This cult trained the woman to use sex to win people to Christ! Yes, I know crazy!!! Warning the following is explicit:

The women were instructed that masturbation, giving oral sex and having intercourse was deemed as showing Gods’ love!!! This was viewed as a way of sharing the love of God!!! This to me is a sickening distortion of so-called showing the love of God. Sexuality and Eros love have nothing to do with winning people to Christ and showing love. As we know sex is reserved for the confines of marriage.

Recently, I asked God what was going on concerning a situation I am looking at and the Lord told me it was similar to Flirty fishing! It blew my mind, but I see the connection.

So here is the situation. This woman claims that God told her to show love to this single man and that it was for the purpose of ministry and the kingdom, but guess what? It has changed from sharing God’s love to sharing Eros love! I asked God what happened and the Lord told me, it was never supposed to cross that line, but the motive of the person was wrong and so it’s turned from ministry to selfish purpose!

Some people, particularly men are susceptible to these kind of things, especially if they don’t have their own flesh under control. So now there is all of this talk linking this so-called Agape love, but in reality there is no connection.

I actually saw the effort being made toward seduction many years ago and it had NOTHING to do with Agape. It was a subtle form of seduction. This is no different than what Delilah did with Samson and of course, Samson fell for it hook line and sinker!

Flirty fishing is of the devil. You don’t have sex with people to win them to Christ, period case closed. Showing Eros love and saying it’s Agape is no different either. If you are going to show the love of God, just do it and don’t add or take away. This is demonic as well.

The adversary has many ways of pulling people into deception. This is why we must be vigilant and move away from sin because it’s a great deceiver!

Matthew 24:24 New International Version (NIV)

24 For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wondersto deceive, if possible, even the elect.

I’d Rather Have the Warning

I have been in this prophetic walk for some time now and no I am not perfect. I am just a mailman sharing what God has given me. But the downside to this is that most of the time my words are rejected which means I am rejected.

My mind goes back to the time where a family member married his mistress. It was a mess. He was a pastor. He was cheating with a woman in the church, the wife found out and then he went through a divorce. He continued on with the mistress and married her 2 days after his divorce was final. God was not pleased because it hurt His people. When God raises us up, we automatically become a role-model for the people of God whether we like it or not. So we can’t do as we please. Well long story short, after the marriage, God gave me a word warning him that his mate would die prematurely. I honestly believe God would have been pleased if he had the marriage annulled early on. That was the purpose of the warning.

Well naturally, he did not want to hear it, but God still said it. This family member even went to my Pastor and my Pastor deemed the word NOT OF GOD! But guess what. Years later when (as he explained to me) the marriage was at it’s sweetest, she died suddenly. Yes, God said it and it happened. It was God’s divine hand of discipline. All because of disobedience. Now who wants to go through all of that?

Recently, I watched the World Trade Center movie by Oliver Stone and of course it brought back memories of that fateful day and my mind when to my former Pastor who is a prophet, sending out a nationwide letter saying 9-11 is not a good day to conduct business.  I’ve share this story many times on this blog. Well one of the members of our church (where I was attending at the time) had a meeting at the Windows of the World restaurant and she cancelled it thus saving her life. She didn’t get upset and start saying he was being negative. She LISTENED and heeded the warning. God put a true prophet in her life to SAVE her life!

Sometimes people want to be coddled and don’t want to hear the truth. Well guess what? The truth is love. If the sky is falling, I want to know! I want to know so that I can make the adjustment and change the path I am following.

Today someone told me I was a branch that had no use to them (that is how I interpreted it). But I know God is about to teach that person the lesson of a lifetime. It’s been shown to me for years. Warnings are not to evoke fear. Warnings are to get you ready for the battle. Like I said in the title. I’ve rather have the warning then somebody lulling me to sleep with words of  flattery and so-called “love” when my world is about to cave in.

I truly feel sorry for the church today. There is nothing like a good old sermon that brings conviction and discipline. I like being washed by the word. I don’t want people telling me I’m wonderful, I’m great, I am God’s gift to planet earth, when I know good and well I’m a mess!

Satan fell when he got uplifted in pride and that is what God is about to do to some of these folks who don’t see themselves clearly. Some of them are going to fall right to the ground and hit it hard and come back up with true humility!

Proverbs 16:18 King James Version (KJV)

18 Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.

Manifestation

There are some things that God revealed to me many years back that are beginning to manifest. Don’t tell me I’m obsessed or I’m living someones life because trust me I am not. I am a woman who answered the call of God a long time ago and HE decided to reveal something about someone to me. No I did not delve into their life illegally by the spirit. God chose to share these things with me for His purpose. Some people have a problem with things like this, but get over it because God is God and He can do whatever He wants.

God showed me a scandal, sin being uncovered, rejection and this stuff affecting someones reputation and career. When I see what God has shown me (I believe this is it) I take no pleasure. But I do know that often God has to shake us up to get our attention. When we get off track, God will move heaven and earth to get us back on track. And His ways are not like ours. We live in new age, positive thinking, everything in life is and should be good, but that is not how God functions. We pay the price for sin. Yes God loves us and because He loves us, He will spank us. It’s no different then a parent and a child. You love your child, but you will spank your child too. Does that mean you don’t love that child? Of course not.

The manifestation of what God showed me happening is not a surprise to me. It was just a matter of time. The circumstance may be the surprise, but not the fact that some things are coming to the surface. I have enough experience in hearing from God and seeing it happen to know, it’s just a matter of time. In fact, I now recall a dream that was clearly showing what is happening now. I just had forgotten it.

The storm clouds are looming right now. I believe God is showing me, it’s going to get far worse before it get’s better. This is a crazy ride. It has to be God because he knows I would have let go 5 years ago, but the Lord said not so. It seems more impossible than EVER for some of what God revealed to me to come to pass now. Often we don’t like God’s ways and I have to say I really don’t.

I’m not sure what to say. I would not have chosen this path. I just know everything God has showed me is happening, so I believe I will see the end result that He told me. Now my role is to just pray and seek Him for further direction. I am not going to put it out there because it’s not what people are thinking and hoping. I know God has settled me in a place of safety and the safest place in the whole wide world, is in the Will of God.

I have one instruction right now. It’s seems like an impossible feat. But once I accomplish this, I will be on the other side!

Isaiah 55:8-9 New International Version (NIV)

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

 

Faith in Who?

sarah mother of isaacThis morning I had an epiphany, which is going to help me move forward in the next leg of the journey. You see God has shown me some things that He intends to do in my future and I have had to hold on for dear life, but lately, I have gotten weary and wanted to let go and honestly that is what I did for a while. But today something happened that let me know what the problem is. The problem is my faith was not fully in God. God showed me my faith was in God and man.

For those of you who understand what it’s like to carry a vision, it’s difficult. It’s difficult when God shows you that someone else is connected to the vision and they don’t see it.  After all, if God spoke to one person, wouldn’t He speak to the other person? Well I believe He will eventually. But that has nothing to do with your own belief system. Your faith, is the only faith you are responsible for. Let me give you a couple of examples.

Let’s take Abraham and Sarah. Both up in age and neither one of them had any children and they were both feeling some kind of way about it. But they thought it had gotten to the place where it was impossible. So Sarah get’s the bright idea to give her husband to a younger handmaid and “whoomp, there is it”, Hagar get’s pregnant and has a son.

Of course everyone knows a baby is a blessing from God. I happen to LOVE babies and would never reject any child, no matter how they came into the world. I would have been trying to help Hagar out. lol But guess what? This was not God’s promised child, even though He allowed that life to be born. This is where we get the phrase “making an Ishmael”. You see Ishmael was not God’s promise and Abraham pleaded with God to let this child live under His blessing, but God had a plan. Isaac was STILL on the way. But let me tell you why this situation is messed up. It’s messed up because Ishmael and Isaac are still fighting to this day (do your research). Someone didn’t have enough faith (Sarah) to trust God, and Abraham followed suit. So they took matters into their own hands and the results are still wrecking havoc to this day.

Let’s talk Mary and Joseph. Joseph found out Mary was pregnant and he tried his best to kick her to the curb, but there was only one problem. Mary was carrying something born of God. She was carrying the savior of the world! And some of you are carrying something that is totally from God and you are being kicked to the curb daily. But hold on! Keep your faith in GOD and not man.

I am not a wishy-washy person. I am steadfast in what I believe. Just ask my friends. Don’t tell me what God told you because if you do and forget about it or start doubting I will remind you of it 5 years from now. lol But yet I have become the most unstable person in my faith lately and God showed me why. I started looking for validation from man instead of keeping my eyes on Jesus. Look folks, don’t worry about who doesn’t believe and who does, or who has the same “revelation” and who doesn’t. If you are sure you didn’t make anything up and that you heard from God HOLD ON AND DON’T LET GO.

God revealed some things to me MANY years ago (I stopped saying how many) and what he told me THEN is happening NOW. All of it. There may have been a surprise or two, but we won’t even to into that. The basic story was given to me because God knew I had to know or else I would not be able to hold on. Well if God said it, and it’s happening even though contrary, why on earth would I give up now?! Well I’m not.

I am going to ignore the circumstances and keep my eyes on JESUS! I know that God can get the message to whoever he needs to and make it so there person hears him LOUD AND CLEAR!

I was lamenting about carrying my vision alone, but not anymore. I am better off carry it alone so that I can remain STABLE. I know my ability to hear from God. It’s proven and tested and it’s me and Jesus and may be until the day of manifestation and that is okay with me!

Hang on to what God said, no matter what!!!

Daniel 10:7-8 Living Bible (TLB)

I, Daniel, alone saw this great vision; the men with me saw nothing, but they were suddenly filled with unreasoning terror and ran to hide, so I was left alone. When I saw this frightening vision, my strength left me, and I grew pale and weak with fright.