A New Memo

miamiI know a lot of people do what they want, and consult God later, but when you walk prophetically, you take directions from the Lord.

About 6 weeks ago, I heard the still small voice of the Lord say “go to Miami”. Well the reason I know it was God was because I had no desire or intention of going. I believe God had something in mind, but my only objection is that I did not want to travel by myself. I’ve done that so much, I am just tired. Well again I heard the still small voice of the Lord say “take your prayer partner”.  Well when I asked her about it she just laughed. You see that very same morning, she was standing in the kitchen and heard God say “go to Miami for a divine connection”. So we started making plans.

I am used to going and just obeying God because He said so, but we also planned our trip around a stage play and so as the time got closer, I became unsure and so again I went to God and asked him to confirm what He has instructed me to do. Recently, I got a message and it seems that there would be no purpose for me to take this trip, so now it’s iffy.

You know if God want to connect us to people and opportunities, all parties must be in agreement and if they are not, then there is no reason to go. I am okay with it. I have to say I was not jumping up and down over the idea because I feel unprepared. But it seems I’ve checked my spiritual “mailbox” and there is a new memo and that memo seems to be saying “don’t go”.

We have to stay open to the changes that God makes. He will accept our hesitancy for now. God sees and knows the whys and He will allow it, but His ultimate plan will come to pass no matter what. Sometimes these delays are simply bumps in the road toward destiny. Our goal should be to get to the place of complete obedience.

Again, I am okay with not going. There will be another opportunity and hopefully this time all parties will be ready!

This is a time when you can make plans for the days ahead, but after you decide what you want to do, hold your plans loosely.  Hold them in your heart as with an open hand so that I can still have My way with you.  Be flexible, and allow Me to change the details or even your direction.  The facts are not all available to you at this time, but they will unfold with time, says the Lord.  You belong to Me; let Me direct your steps.  Psalms 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.

Accepting What Is

I just watched a video of the testimony of the daughter of a well-known Pastor, who is touching the world. His daughter wrote a book about her own story and it’s was really quite stunning. This daughter of a nationally known minister, found herself pregnant out-of-wedlock at the age of 13, married to a cheater by age 19 and divorced by age 23. I had not heard her testimony and was amazed at all she had gone through.

Later, I saw my former Pastor sharing with this young woman. My former Pastor is now divorced from her husband, who is also a Pastor and the transparency of both of these woman did something to me. Although, I know it, these stories reiterated to me that life is not perfect and we don’t get a Cinderella ending. You may get the husband, but end up barren. You may have the children and lose the husband. You may have a perfectly happy life, but then get sick. There will always be something that we have to deal with. What we must learn to do is accept what is. Accept God’s will, and accept what is taking place in our lives. The path that we travel just is not perfect, but his plan is perfect for us.

My mother gave birth to six children. She was a step mom to too big children at the age of 19. I have two nieces who are the same age as my youngest two brothers, because my oldest brother was having kids while my mom (his step-mom) was having kids. We have pictures of the babies in bassinets together. lol

Ideally had I married young, I would have had 6 children. That was my desire. If it was left up to me, that is what would have happened. I always wanted to have a large family. But at this point it’s wishful thinking even though a prophetess told me 7 years ago that I would bear 3 children. (Yeah right).

Life is complicated at this point. I am hanging on by a thread to what I believe. But in the midst of it all, I am learning that I must accept what is. No more fantasies. It is what is it! But I can still trust God for what He says will be!

Romans 4:17

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17 As it is written: “I have made you a father of many nations.”[a] He is our father in the sight of God, in whom he believed—the God who gives life to the dead and calls into being things that were not.


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Have you ever agreed to do or commit to something that you knew deep within your heart was not for you to do or commit to at the time?

I know I have, and it definitely is not a good experience.

Here are two typical scenarios.


It’s 5:45pm on a Friday evening and Jamie has just gotten home from work after a long, hard week.

Exhausted with her head pounding and body aching, she opens the door to her apartment and heads for the bathroom.

All she wants to do is take a hot shower and curl up on the couch.

Jamie knows she needs to rest.

The phone rings.

It’s her co-worker/friend Dawn and the following conversation ensues.


“Hi Jamie”

“Hi Dawn. What’s up?”

“I’m wondering if you can keep my kids tonight? Dave wants to…

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About Modesty and Judging

A few minutes ago, I was on Facebook and I commented on a friends post about women and modesty. Honestly, sometimes I am shocked at how people don’t like the truth.


Nikki Minaj

The young lady posted the above picture of Nikki Minaj. The talk is about her much more toned down look and honestly Nikki looks nice. But somehow my Facebook friend connected it to Christian woman and how they dress. I commented that all the men standing behind Nikki were looking at her and my Facebook friend responded that “men are responsible for their own lust”. And we don’t hold any responsibility?

Well first let’s separate worldly women from Godly women. There should be a difference. Women of the world generally dress to be provocative. Not all, but many do. There is no standard of modesty and guess what? We shouldn’t expect anything different. I have no problem with Nikki. I probably would not wear it, without a jacket, but more power to her.


Erica Campbell

But when it comes to a Godly woman, we should always think about how we dress and the effect it will have on our men. Recently, Erica Campbell of Gospel Duo Mary Mary, came under fire because of the above picture. Erica and her sister have been known to push the envelope where their attire is concerned. Personally, I think the dress is too tight, but she has a right to wear what she wants just as I have a right to share my opinion.

Yes, men are responsible for their own lust, but we as Godly women are also responsible for not contributing to those issues. I can’t believe my Facebook friend would think that we don’t have any responsibility.

So, I shared my own story with my Facebook friend. Several years back, I was wearing my favorite blue and white stripe scoop neck shirt. As I walked down the street, I noticed every man I passed was looking right at my boobs (sorry if that word offends you). It got so bad that it was hard not to notice. Well I heard the still small voice of the Holy Spirit say “don’t wear that top anymore”. I went home and that was the last time I wore it. My top was causing a problem with some men. And since I am not flat-chested by any means, it was best for me to not wear it anymore. I could have said “well they have a problem” but that would only have been half the problem. lol

So, just for me posting truth, suddenly I’m judging. I am so sick of people saying you are judging if you share something that is not in agreement with the opinions of others. Spare me. Truth is truth and just because you don’t like it doesn’t mean I am judging people.

The Bible is clear on a lot of things. It speaks of how women should dress, it’s speak about not fornicating, gluttony, lying and cheating. It speaks about the homosexual lifestyle being sin. And if I agree and share what the Bible says, that doesn’t make me judgmental. It just makes me smart. ;-)

Ladies, let’s adorn ourselves properly, I don’t care what the world says!

1 Timothy 2:9-10

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I also want the women to dress modestly, with decency and propriety, adorning themselves, not with elaborate hairstyles or gold or pearls or expensive clothes, 10 but with good deeds, appropriate for women who profess to worship God.

You’re Closer than Ever!

clockIt’s been a while since I blogged and now that I have the desire again, my laptop is a mess and I don’t have internet. But I can always get the internet, it’s just that I need a new laptop. But I just had to blog today. You see God is up to something miraculous and I am so excited I can barely stand it!

I see the hand of God moving and pointing me in the direction of some things and honestly it’s so amazing that I have had to stop talking about it. Let me share this with you. When God starts working in a supernatural way, you may have to keep your mouth shut!

I shared some things with a good friend and my brother and the lady I live with and I see that it’s just not for them. Though they have all been previously supportive in the past, that has changed. But I am not offended. God showed me that I was talking too much and that what He has brought me to is ONLY for me. Lesson learned. And honestly, this is just another sign to me that I am closer than I have ever been before.

Someone may need to be encouraged today. First I want to say no matter how long you have been waiting, when your set time comes, nothing or no one can stop God’s promise. Also, spend time with God and hear what He is saying and don’t share it. What you hear is for you alone and though you may want to take you best friend, your mom and your family along, you can’t! What God has for you is for YOU! They will have to see it when it happens.

I’m loving the secrets that I have with God now. He took me through the process to get here and it’s just God and me. When you get to that place, just know, your blessing is right around the corner!

Psalm 102:13

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13 You will arise and have compassion on Zion,
    for it is time to show favor to her;
    the appointed time has come.


Lessons From a Needy Cat

CAM00045As my regular readers know, I’ve shared that I am living with two cats. Well the younger cat seems to have fallen in love with me. lol I can’t move without that cat following me. He is only a year old and my nickname for him is “baby cat”.  I even made up a song for him. But his name is Buddy. He is really very spoiled and if you give him attention he just wants more.

I’m not an animal lover. I realize that. As much as I love this funny little quirky cat, I know I could move away and not think twice about him, other than having nice memories of when I lived with Buddy the cat. I am still allergic, but I seem to have developed a bit of an immunity as long as I wash my hands after petting him. I’ve thought about taking him when I move, but then I think again and I know I won’t. Sorry to all the animal lovers, but it’s the truth.The one thing I have learned about myself is that I’m not an animal lover.

This little cat is so needy at times. This morning I woke up and was making my smoothie for breakfast and he came in the kitchen and rubbed up against me as he usually does. It’s the cutest thing. And then after he rubs up against me he will do it again. But this morning he laid his head on my slipper and just recently he has started licking my feet. Tell me this cat isn’t nuts about me?? lol He doesn’t even do that to his owner.

I think there is a lesson to be learned from this cat. Sometimes we will have needy people in our lives and we have to give them the love and attention they need, even if we don’t feel like it at times. But unlike humans, Buddy doesn’t go looking for love in other places.  He keeps coming to me every day without fail. ;-) And that makes ALL the difference in the world.

John 15:12

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12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.