The Man God is Preparing for Her

Originally posted on Tovares Grey:

There is a process that every male must go through in life. Many boys never become men either because they allow people to control their lives or because they have never submitted to Christ and allowed him to mold them into the man He is preparing them to be. Men, you have to understand that you must go to God before a woman so He can process you. Ladies, you must understand that you cannot force a man to love you who isn’t ready, you will never be good enough.

1. Boys don’t know what they want.

Every boy has a desire to chase after something. However while immature, he will simply go after what looks and feels good not necessarily what is good for them. Which is why just like a parent, God has to teach him what to avoid and what is acceptable. Men, don’t rush this period…

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Daily Devotional – 10/10/14 “Stop questioning the no!”

Originally posted on Kisha's Daily Devotional:

It’s Friday and someone is fumbling with a failure from your past because here it is again trying to delay your present but I’ve come to tell you beloved, stop questioning the no. Don’t you know by now that what is meant for you; no man can stop. Child, read this carefully … there isn’t a man or woman alive or dead, a past mistake, a credit score, any amount or money, a degree or lack thereof that can stop what God ordains! I’ll take it even further … there isn’t a deacon, trustee, mother board member, usher, associate minister or pew member who can stop what God has ordained! So, why are you questioning a no you’ve received? Why are you crying about a door that was shut in your face? Why are you depressed over an application that was denied, a promotion that was turned down or a…

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Deliverance From Evil

Boys are abused as well!

I’m typing this blog post before I even have a title. I’m thinking by the time I finish, I will have a title.

I’m at the library and when I arrived I had some important things that I needed to do online, or so I thought. As soon as I sat down, an older gentlemen got my attention and asked me if I would type his story. He had such a gentle spirit, I couldn’t turn him down. He offered to pay me a few dollars and I consented, but I believe it was a setup by God!

He had his story written in a notebook and he told me it was his testimony and as I began to read and type, I almost burst into tears. His story was one of great abuse and pain. I know he doesn’t mind me putting it out there because he asked me to leave a copy of it on the library computer so that someone would read it and maybe be helped.

My heart broke as I read his story of being abused by an alcoholic father who raped not only his sister, but him as well. And when he was young, and he saw his father raping his sister for the first time he showed his mom and instead of her breaking it up, his mother took him in another room and had sex with him! She later apologized and never did it again, but she felt if the father could do that to the daughter, she could do it to her son. Some kind of twisted revenge! Ugh!!

Well needless to say he had problems. He was raped by a man and started having sex with men for a while. He got into terrible trouble in school until, no school would accept him. Later he went to a school for troubled kids and was kicked out and that was it.

He later started having sex with little girls and was arrested when he was molesting his cousin and his aunt called the police. There was a lot of incest in the family because not only was there sex with both parents, but with an aunt and a cousin and also with his oldest sister as well. This is mind-boggling to me because in my immediate family this did not happen. There was no inappropriate sex thank God! I do know of some incest between cousins, but other than that, this kind of stuff sounds like Nightmare on Elm Street to me.

He was locked up 5 times and later ended up in a mental institution for over ten years. He lost the memory of his family because he was having Grand Mal Seizures. When he got out of the institution, his mother and oldest sister were dead, but his family found him and forgave him. He said he is okay because he can’t really remember much of what happened, which is a blessing. It’s like he knows it happened, but the torment of it is gone.

After his last stint in jail, he never got in trouble again because he gave his heart to God. He only got a summons for trespassing for preaching the gospel.

He was sitting next to me as I typed and I would ask him questions about his story while typing. I finally finished and we went to the printer and I didn’t realize how tall he was because he was sitting on the seat of his walker. He thanked me and asked me when I would be here again because there were a few more pages left to type and I told him maybe tomorrow. He was a pleasant man who smiled in spite of his disabilities and the pain of his past. He’s found Jesus and was delivered from evil!

I was stunned to read his story and it was an eye-opener for me. Everyone has a story and some people are coming up out of great pain. Honestly, I would say my family was close to the Cleaver’s or the Brady Bunch compared to what this man went through.

God had a reason for me typing this story. My heart was deeply moved with compassion and I realize that we have to be more patient and loving toward people because some people are coming out of some nightmare situations!

Lord help us to be more like you! Help us to understand the plight of our fellow man and to SHOW LOVE!

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 New International Version (NIV)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Here We Go!

I’m about to drop a bombshell and let the chips fall where they may. Honestly, I know the only thing that is going to get me through the days ahead is prayer and fasting. The last time I fasted God showed me he had indeed spoken to someone about something that I was wondering about and before the day ended, God showed me the truth. But everyday it’s something different. But I can’t allow that to affect me and my faith.

My prayer partner had a dream a while back and in the dream she saw God’s intended mate for me and she named him. In the dream, he decided to keep someone else around and in the dream I was unaffected. I thought I was there, but it seems I’m not. I have to get on the other side of this! Just know, all that I share is in love.

So years back God gave me a vision about a mate. Yes, I know you are tired of hearing about it, and honestly, I am tired of talking about it. But I am going to clarify some stuff and I’m sure it will get me in trouble. Because he lives in another state, it was suggested (by him) in a subtle way that I needed to move in order for this thing to happen and for a while I believed that I did need to move and felt the pressure to do it because of this man.

Unfortunately, I promised and promised that I was moving and every time I seriously decided to move, a situation would crop up concerning another woman and it was a stop sign for me. Well now that thing is full blown and all I can say is it was God who stopped me from moving, no doubt. Had I gone, this same situation would have came up and where would I be? I would be sitting in another state looking stupid. And some other stuff has happened as well. I don’t think for a minute that that my moving would have had any baring on the current state of circumstance. In other words, it all would have happened anyway!

So here I am promising and promising and finally I fasted and God told me (through a sermon) where I was is the place I am to be for now and that I did not have to run to that other city (the city was named). Then God told me to STOP promising that person I was going to move because every time I said it and didn’t do it, it would disappoint that person.

So where does that leave the vision now and how will it happen? I think I have an idea, but I’m gonna keep my mouth shut. But I do know that God is not requiring me to relocate my life especially now where the circumstance is crazy! Let’s be honest. Why would God require me to move for a man who says he is in love with someone else? And then there is some other stuff too? Think about it!

God is especially protective over his handmaids. He does not want us mistreated nor is He putting undo pressure on us to do things that are simply not required. Trust me, if God wants you to meet someone, he can have you both end up in the same place at the same time. But I believe who God has for me, will come looking of his own free will.

Well, I said it. Let the chips fall where they may! All I know to do now is fast and prayer.

Numbers 23:19 New International Version (NIV)

19 God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?

 

False Dreams and Revelations

I have not arrived, but I am definitely not a novice concerning the things of God. And yet, God is still showing me how easy it is to be deceived. Let me give you one secret in how to not be deceived. Here it is: DON’T REJECT WHAT GOD HAS SAID.

The quickest way to be deceived is when we don’t want to accept what God has ALREADY REVEALED. Each time we reject God’s will, it opens us to more and more deception. Let me share my own story.

In 2011 the Lord showed me the death of my father. It was confirmed, and it was about to happen. My mother’s death was so traumatic for me, that I asked God to please warn me before any other deaths and God did. I knew my father was going to die. Over the summer of 2011, we found out he had cancer metastasized on the liver and that pretty much sealed that he would not live that much longer. He was an old man and it was his time to go.

Well here comes the lady who I now live with saying that she had a dream that he was healed. She kept saying it so much that it started to influenced me. The only problem was she had misinterpreted her dreams. Then here is the clincher. Once I started believing her, I seemed like I started getting what seemed like confirmations that God was going to heal him. I remember watching a minister talk about an 80-year old woman being healed of cancer. Yes! Surely this was a confirmation that God was going to heal my Dad too! Well it was not because God has already spoken.

Whenever you continue to entertain what others are saying when it’s contrary to what God already told you, you are going to end up with a FALSE REVELATION.

I took it so far as to sharing with my whole family about the healing. I wouldn’t even allow the hospice nurse to give him too much pain medicine thinking that I didn’t want it to affect his healing (yes, I did). Finally my sister, who is a hospice nurse stepped in and told them to make our Dad comfortable and that is what they did and shortly after that he died.

Now I was not embarrassed for sharing about healing with family. I was annoyed that I let someone else influence my thinking against what God had already said. But guess what? It was a lesson that I needed to learn and boy did I learn it. And I see why. Right now I am dealing with something that seems like it’s impossible. But I heard God and I’m not budging!

I later learned that the lady that I live with had dreams about people when they die! She didn’t even understand her own gift and here I was listening to her. But again, I learned from that.

Listen, don’t keep rejecting what God already told you. That in itself is going to bring a lot of heartache. But I suspect, some of you are just like me. You are going to have to learn this lesson on your own.

Numbers 23:19 New International Version (NIV)

19 God is not human, that he should lie,
    not a human being, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
    Does he promise and not fulfill?